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Blogpost from Perry Noble

2009-09-03T12:19:00.000+08:00

Attention Pastors: Keep Your Penis In Your Pants!!! October 15, 2008

No, the title is NOT a type-o! I meant exactly what I said…and I will mean every single word that follows.

Before you write me an email (which will automatically deleted…I don’t freakin’ care what anyone thinks about this post) you need to understand that I am completely pissed off…and…at the same time completely broken over this subject!

AND…this is something that NEEDS to be addressed. Unfortunately at conferences people will talk about it in the corners and private conversations…but rarely will anyone speak (or blog) about it because they feel they may offend someone if they use “strong language.” I am SICK and TIRED of people dancing around the issue and speaking in OBSCURE terms!
It’s about freakin’ time SOMEONE quite worrying about who gets offended and just flat out told the truth…

PASTORS…we have a calling from God, we are called to live with integrity, we are called to LEAD by living an example…and that CANNOT be done if we are trying to have sex with women that we are NOT MARRIED TOO!

The other day I was sitting at my desk and received an email from a friend informing me that another good friend of ours had disqualified himself from the ministry because of an affair.

I wanted to throw up! I began shaking all over. I wanted to cry…and at the same time I wanted to throw things and cuss. The enemy scored another notch…another black eye on the Christian faith.

Am I judging the guy? Heck no! Anytime I hear of something like this happening I always say, “It’s by God’s grace that it didn’t happen to me.” In fact; I called him and spoke with him for quite a while. I love the guy–he’s my friend and always will be.

However, pastors–THIS HAS TO STOP! We cannot get up on Sunday and tell people how to live if lust and sexual fantasies with women we are not married to are dominating our minds.

Paul said in Philippians 4:8 that we need to think about things that exalt Christ…NOT satisfy our own flesh! Let me ask you an honest question pastor–RIGHT NOW…is there a woman other than you wife that you are thinking sexual thoughts about?

If the answer is yes then you’ve GOT TO TELL SOMEONE! PLEASE, get some help!!! Talk to a friend…go see a Counselor…but DO IT NOW! I know you think you are strong…but all it takes is ONE WEAK MOMENT and then BAM…everything you’ve worked so hard for is LOST on the five seconds of sensation that you obtain!

It’s SO SAD when pastors will talk about how bad it was that Esau sold his birthright for a bowl of soup…and then they will turn around and sell their ministry for an orgasm!

Is it tough to maintain a sexually pure mind? YOU HAD BETTER BELIEVE IT! I remember my pastor saying to me back in 1990 when he was meeting with a group of young men who were called into the ministry, “Boys, everyone of you is going to have a chance to have an affair…and it’s not because you are good looking but rather because the enemy is crafty and knows he can use a woman to take you down!”

I know of some pastors who have had emotional affairs with women…and when questioned about it they will simply say, “Well, my wife just wasn’t there for me!”

WHAT A FREAKIN’ WIMP!!! In 99.9% of the cases the wife wasn’t there because the PASTOR was out trying to impress everyone else and, in doing so, didn’t pursue his wife!!!!!!! SHE NEEDS YOU BRO!!! AND…if you would pursue her and QUIT allowing the church to be your mistress…things would be a lot better!

Pastors…I am NOT a legalist…except for this subject! We simply CANNOT allow the enemy to steal our calling, kill God’s work and destroy our families simply because we began thinking between our legs and not between our ears!

My advice…take RADICAL steps. Make a committment to NEVER be alone with a woman! EVER…under ANY circumstances. Form a relationship with a godly man whom you trust and talk about your struggles…every single one of them. Pastors–we’ve GOT to stop trying to impress others with how “godly we are!” HONESTY paves the way to INTIMACY with GOD…and the reason a lot of pastors don’t feel a connection with the ALMIGHTY is because they are too busy trying to “connect” with a willing woman…BUT denying that they have the desire to do so!!!

If you are a church member…PRAY for the purity of your pastor–EVERY SINGLE DAY! Is sexual temptation real for him? Let me go ahead and say it–YES! (And the pastor who says no is a freakin’ liar!!!) As I said earlier…the enemy is wise…he knows WHEN to tempt and WHAT to tempt with!!! Pray that he will walk with Jesus and ONLY have eyes for his wife!!!

PASTORS…the battle is REAL…and IF you are struggling it is NOT going to go away! How do you resist?

STOP DENYING there is a problem…if there is…CONFESS IT!!!

PURSUE YOUR WIFE with passion like never before! Warning…if you haven’t pursued her in a while she is going to be skeptical of your advances…it’s going to take time to win back her heart.

II Corinthians 10:5 says that we should take every thought captive and make it obedient to Christ…that means WHEN (not if) the lustful thoughts come your way…understand that those thoughts are NOT FROM GOD…take them captive!

STOP FLIRTING WITH ANYONE EXCEPT FOR YOUR WIFE!!! No texting, no emails, no chatting online, no “counseling appointments,” no long lunches…STOP IT NOW!!!

I’ve said about all I am going to say about this for now…as I said…I am ANGRY…angry that the enemy is so persistent and that SO MANY men give in rather than calling on the unbelievable power that Christ has placed inside of us through HIS Holy Spirit.

Pastors…let’s be men who LOVE Jesus, LOVE our wives, LOVE our children and then LOVE His church!

AND…one more time, IF you are struggling with this–PLEASE GET HELP! You cannot keep sin in the dark…Galatians 6:7 says God will not be mocked…you know that verse…you’ve preached it many times…problem is you don’t think it applies to you…and it does!!!

My desire when it is all said & done is NOT to pastor the largest church in the world or to speak at tons of conferences or to sell lots of books…but rather to hear the words of my Lord, “Well done my good and faihtful servant.”

And…if I die before ‘Cretia I want for her to be able to stand over my coffin and KNOW that I was 100% faithful to her…that I was a man who took a vow to forsake all others…and that I was man enough to fulfill that vow!!!

Do you have the stones to man up? Will you commit to purity RIGHT NOW? Seriously, break off a phone call to someone TODAY and have a serious conversation about this. Ask them to ask you the tough questions…and be man enough to be honest!!! We can’t let the enemy have any more ground here…let’s take it back!!!

2009-08-20T14:50:00.002+08:00

Put on your creative and imaginative caps as I bring you through an exciting journey with me…

Imagine…

You are standing in front of the open gates of a giant maze with its concrete walls towering to as high as 10 metres.

You have to get across the maze, and find your way out – through that one and only exit.

The rule: One step taken, one move made, not reversible. No U-turns allowed.

Your first step was easy. You look ahead of you, a straight quiet path. You made your second move. Not difficult at all.

You increased your speed at every pace you made. You began walking,

and walking,

and walking,

and walking…

And you stopped.

You arrived at your first crossroads, an empty path to your right and another to your left.

A crucial decision has to be made. It’s either or, one that leads to the desired destination, or the other, a dead end.

“Which way should I go?”

A gush of emotions engulfs you. Fear, lost, confusion, hesitation, you can’t decide.

With much contemplation, “Right, I should turn right. Yes, that should be it.”

And you turned.

Not knowing what lies ahead of you, you just kept walking.

You walked,

and walked…

and walked…

“Man, if only I’m able to have an overview of the maze. I would know which way to turn, which path to choose, anticipate the crossroads. I will get to the end in no time!” you sighed grouchily.

Knowing there’s no way for you to turn back; you grit your teeth, clenched your fist, take a deep breath, and kept on walking,

and walking,

and walking…

Your footsteps got heavier, and heavier. Perspiration drops trickled off your face incessantly as the scorching sun shone down on planet earth. You are exhausted but you just couldn’t stop. Along came more crossroads… tougher decisions you had to make.

Crossroads,

and crossroads,

and more crossroads!

You sensed deep in your heart, that all this is coming to an end. You anticipate excitedly, and started making your final dashes… only to find yourself standing in front of a 10m tall concrete wall.

Your heart sank. “Dead-end?! How can it be?! Didn’t I make the right decisions all these while? I want to do this all over again!”

Regrets…

The End…

Moral of the story?

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“Mazes are bad!”

Nope, think deeper.

Ask yourself these questions…

“What has this story got to say about my life? How is it related to me? How can I identify with it?”

This is life. Our lives are like mazes. Take a look at the similarities.
Both mazes and life…
• Have only one chance; no U-turn
• You can’t see the overview; predict the right move
• There are crossroads; decisions
• Your goal is to end up where you want to be; intentions
• You will end up where your decisions lead you; destination
Now, to sum up the whole thing, the key principle is this.
Our decisions, not our intentions, determine our destination.
Example 1:
You INTEND to get A for your exam. But you DECIDE to play dota all day. So obviously, your DESTINATION, where you end up, is you will not get A.

Example 2:
You INTEND to win in a race. But you DECIDE to eat unhealthily and refuse to train. So obviously, your DESTINATION, where you end up, is you will not win the race.

Example 3:
You INTEND to have a good relationship. But you DECIDE not to make effort. So obviously, your DESTINATION, where you end up, is you will not have a good relationship.

Example 4:
You INTEND to get closer to God. But you DECIDE not to do your quiet time. So obviously, your DESTINATION, where you end up, is you will not get close to God.

Example 5:
You INTEND to do great things for God. But you DECIDE not to obey Him. So obviously, your DESTINATION, where you end up, is you will not do great things for God.

Example 6:
You INTEND to enjoy a great marriage. But you DECIDE to fool around with girls. So obviously, your DESTINATION, where you will end up, is you will not enjoy a great marriage.

Do these make sense to you?
Our decisions, not our intentions, determine our destination.
Remember this principle.

And another thing to take note is this…
We only have one life; one chance to make it right.

So the main question is this…
HOW TO MAKE THE RIGHT DECISIONS!?
Truth is, we can never make the right decisions on our own, especially when the we are in the maze itself. We cannot see what is ahead, or the overview. And, in life, we tend to make decisions based on feelings. We make decisions that have more emotional appeal. Thus, it is really hard to make the right decisions.
But there is a way.
Here are some suggestions:
1. Look ahead and don’t rush to decide
2. Learn from others who have been through it
3. Lean on God and ask Him for directions and listen to Him

2009-07-14T19:29:00.000+08:00

This video is about a how a father brought his son to finish the Ironman race.

As I watch this video, naturally, I was reminded about how similar this story relates to us all, like our heavenly father to us.

Like the father who freed the son from his limitations
Our father freed us from our transgressions
Like the father who showed the son possibilities
Our Father showed us no impossibilities
Like the father who did not give up on his son
Our Father did not give up on anyone
Like the father who went the extra miles
Our Father had passed through realms
Like the father who carried his son through the race
Our Father will carry us through by His grace
Like the father and son, together passed the line
Our Father and us, together till the end of time

The son CAN only because of his father.
Similarly, we CAN only because of our Father.

two different stories, one moral
two different objectives, one motivation

LOVE

2009-07-12T01:58:00.000+08:00

Pastor Jeff’s message, as always, was very clear today. As the church is in the midst of the year of preparation, the few things that he kept emphasizing were to
• Prepare lives
• Prepare leadership
• Prepare base camp
He was so very sure of where God is leading us and where he is heading.

Then he began to challenge for new leaders to rise up, new carriers of the responsibility he was carrying. These carriers must possess
• Character (FATS)
• Competency

I was so inspired by his teaching. Not because he is good in teaching or humorous, but it was his conviction that kept me attentive to him. His heart for God and people, and passion for the church, was expressed by his enthusiasm when he teaches despite his sickness. He literally loved God with all his strength, serving God to his very best and very last breath.

I feel so assured following his leadership as he follows God’s leadership.

Thanks to Pastor Jeff for serving God and serving us.

2009-07-06T01:14:00.001+08:00

Today was my team’s first Hope Premier League match!! My team is called Pikachu, what a weird name huh. I joined the tertiary’s tp group to play with Alvin since we had not enough people to form one on our own. And the match was postponed due to the heavy downpour and lightning. So we shall continue our remaining 20mins next week which I find it really stupid and a waste of time to travel. And thankfully, we are leading 3-2.

My position was center back, defender, which was the same as the previous time. Honestly speaking, I don’t really like playing that position. I felt that I can do much more when if I play forward. Those who know me will know that its more me to play forward. I felt that I was kind of restricted when I play defender. But then it again reminded me that the position and role that I was playing was very crucial, so does every single position in the team. That’s what makes a team. Everyone plays a different role and have each role plays a crucial part in winning the game. No position or role is exclusively more important. Without any, the group will not be as strong. Without the defender, the opponents can score and essentially win the game. That’s why I had to do to my best at the role that I am assigned to do. I am the sweeper!! Whenever the opponents attack, I will be ready to sweep their ball away.

And during the match I learnt something about myself today. I have this tendency to be hesitant and indecisive. I always take in too many things into consider which in the end hindered what I want to do and I should do. This realization came upon me when I thought about how I was playing the game. I realized I tend to be very slow to react one what I should do. For example, I will think if I should attack the incoming striker with the ball or to mark the other striker which is another opening. Because of my hesitance, sometimes I tend to be too slow and miss out the opportunity to even do anything. I merely stood there. I was hesitant, indecisive, and not initiating enough in the game. I felt very uneasy that I could not make a difference, and what made it worst was because I didn’t do what I should have done. This brought me back to how I do things at times too. There are things that I want to do for God but I do not do. Sometimes I consider too many things which in the end led to me doing nothing. I lack initiation; hesitant. For example, there are some things which I want to say to the group, but considering some things that I at hand, I did not. I think this is really bad. I will end up doing nothing accomplished. I have to be more choleric and just do it. The only consideration should be if it is beneficial for the Kingdom of God. If it is then just go for it.

I am going to make a difference to the game by beginning with myself.

2009-06-18T23:15:00.001+08:00

Today was the East District Training Day, enjoyed it loads.

The whole event was planned out very well, though I know it was pretty last minute. The whole thing was only finalized the day before. And, I was only informed about being a game master the first thing I woke up in the morning. However, everything still flowed smoothly and I guess the objectives were met, people were trained.

Being the game master was honestly easy, compared to the others. All I needed to do was to be there earlier, be briefed about the thing I need to do, help out abit here and there, and give the teams instructions on what to do during the station games. That was totally slack. But thank God for that, I do not have to suffer the torturous 200 pushups and 200 jumping jets. Muahahaha. And I seriously salute all those who did that. They really persevered and endured all the pain. Sherman is one that I have to give my highest respect to. Though his palm skin has already peeled and it hurts really really bad, he did not give up but persevered to end. Three cheers to him man. He deserves the most persevering award.

The war game was really fun too. I love war games. How I wish I am in the ancient times when people fight war with weapons, so fun. I love the strategic planning and whacking ahead kind of feeling. CHIONG AR!!! I can feel the adrenaline gushing in my body when I run forward and digging my way through the defense and hitting down their stronghold. Man, all man should love this kind of thing man.

Then after the war games, Dennis talked about this whole training class and how each station represent it characteristics of every servant of God should have which was taught in the church camp. He brought it across to in a way that links back to our lives. How we should keep enduring the hardship of persecution, strength to carry on, and courage to evangelize. I pray that everyone will really grow in these characteristics and be a powerful servant of God.

After the whole has ended, was the beginning of another war, a war between every single individual who was still around. It was time for some water splashing fun. Everyone began to gather water and pour on one another. The whole place was in chaos. People refilled water from the sea, imagine how unlimited the resource was. Until a point when some got tired of transporting the water, they just went to the beach and pushed one another down. No one left the place dry, those who were still around. And for some, they are the ones who are always being targeted at. Though already all drenched, people still love to pour water on them. Reason? – their expressions and reactions are priceless. Not forgetting the photo taking session. I love taking photos with people. I consider myself abit of a sentimental person who likes to keep this kind of photos for memory sake.

At the end of the day, we all left the place physically drained, I was. But one thing for sure was that I enjoyed the fellowship and time spent together with others. And the most important thing of all is that we have all played enough. It is time for some work to be done, schools to be won, people to outreached, and our service to God.

Thanksgiving

2009-03-31T11:50:00.001+08:00

Dear God,

Thank You for all the blessings in my life. I cannot express my gratitude just by mere words of thanks. It is far beyond words. Your works and blessings in my life are ever so evident that I just have to thank You and to praise and to worship you with my utmost being. You are worthy; too worthy. What can I do but lift Your name up and up to the highest!!

Top in the list, God I want to thank You for your presence that is ever with me. Never have you left me, never will you leave me. I am always so assured that your presence is around and it comforts me. In times of distress, in times of trouble, You are there to hear my cry for help and lead me to inner peace like no other. Your reassuring presence always gives me the sense of security in my life. Thanks.

And of course, thank You for Your grace that is ever sufficient for me. I am unworthy; a trash; a sinful man. But God Your love never fails to reach out to me. Your love always stretches out to me when I fall. No matter how many times I fail again and again and again, Your grace is always there to life me up again. I have failed many times; 77 times. But Your forgiveness is up to 777 times. Though unworthy, You still used me as Your servant. It is such a privilege to serve You. Thanks.

Not forgetting this family that you have placed me in. It is not perfect but I am satisfied, contented. I am grateful that at least, I have a loving dad who is so sacrificial. Being in pain and agony of all the aches around his body, he still wakes up every weekday at 530am to work. Sometimes he even had to work overtime, consequently reaching home only at 1am and needs to wake up at 530am again. My heart aches for him, and grateful. Though not complete as a proper family, it is a family still. Thank You in advance for their salvation that is to come. Thanks.

I would also like to thank you for placing Dennis in my life, my mentor. It is without doubt that You have used him in many areas to speak into my life. He has been of great help to me in this spiritual walk with You. Getting me back on track every time I stray off, and pouring out his love which he had received from You. Thanks.

Thanks for bringing Yi Qin in my life at a young age of 11. It is a blessing to be able to have a close friend whom I have known since young, to grow up together, passing through different stages of life together. And the best part of all is to have a friend as a brother in Christ, as fellow servants, having the same vision to build Your church and to fulfill the Great Commission. It has been such a joy to have a friend and brother such as him. Thanks.

I also thank You for all the other friends that You have brought into my life. They have been very encouraging to me, encouraging me to grow and persevere and be strong. Supportive to me, helping me in areas that I am weak in. Loving to me, correcting me at times when I do wrong. Companion to me, being there with and for me. Tolerating to me, bearing all my nonsense and irritating moments. It is really so great to have these close friends whom i can live life with. Thanks especially for those whom You made me able to relate to more. You know it is not very easy for me to talk to anyone in a close measure, that’s why You placed in me those that are so easy to relate to closely. They are one of the greatest assets that I have in this life, for I am spending eternity with them. Thanks.

Not forgetting the numerous blessings that are in my life, 2 especially that I would like to mention.

First is the trip to Hainan, China. It must be You that have given me this opportunity to go there. Opening doors and closing doors to find a way for me to go overseas with the air tickets absolutely free. It is really amazing. Your perfect timing is beyond description, divine. I know for sure that this is Your plan that I am able to attend this trip. Being there to help out some community work, painting houses harvesting and teaching English, I know this is a good opportunity that I can be exposed to the world. To get a mind blowing experience to the rural parts to get a glimpse of how the world is life outside Singapore. And to see how big and how wide the world is than to be restricted in the mentality of Singapore. And to see the numerous people out in the world that needs a Savior. And to gain compassion for the world and to experience Your heartbeat for this broken world. I will treasure this opportunity that You have given me. You have all this in mind, for my sake. Thanks.

Secondly, thanks for the two experienced singer that you have lead me to. You know I love to sing and You know that I am still amateur. I have loads to learn and improve in. And I know you know because You lead two different people to me to learn singing from. It is really spectacular how You opened these doors. They were really helpful to teach me some techniques and correct some of my common errors. I pray that I would be able to improve even more to be able to serve You more effectively as a support singer. Thanks.

Many many thanks to You Dad!!

Your beloved child,

Claest

Love

2009-02-16T19:16:00.001+08:00

My current understanding for the term – Love:

Love is a COMMITMENT to make DECISIONS for the BEST of OTHERS.

COMMITMENT – It is not a feeling, but a responsibility or loyalty

DECISIONS – It is a deliberately effort to make a choice

BEST – Decisions that may even be not pleasing

OTHERS – Best for others without any conditions; Selfless

Short stupid post…

2009-02-01T11:28:00.001+08:00

ARH!! I HAVE NO TIME TO POST MY LEARNINGS!! Ha…

I have been busy doing my projects for the past few weeks. Man… its tedious. Actually come to think of it, its all not tooooooo hard to do. I think its due to my extreme ‘slakiness’ and good procrastination skills that caused this much delay, as if there is a whole lot of work to do. Ha… ARH!! I have to be more disciplined!! I need to make my body my slave!! Ha…

Anyway, this is just a short stupid post. Ha… I have around 3 posts in mind already. LOL!! I have been learning and would like to share when i have got the time. Let me just give the glimpse of each…

- Maze

- Fish

- Expectation

‘HUH!? What the…’

Divine Meet with Xiao Guai (Part 2)

2009-01-24T00:48:00.001+08:00

Continued from the previous post…

The spiritual journey of Xiao Guai…

(May miss out some details or may be wrong at some points)

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Let me share his conversion story.

In the vicinity he lives, Jesus is still a pretty ‘huh?’ thing. Majority of the people have never even heard of the name Jesus before. However, somehow, he kind of heard of that name, when he was primary 5 or 11 years old. It should be from an aunt. And the aunt even gave him a bible. And of course, being only 11 years old, bible is like nonsense. Thus, he threw it aside. Till now, he is still clueless about Christianity.

When he went to secondary school, he was badly influenced and was led astray. He was violent and vulgar. It was only until upper secondary, there was a sudden peace and joy in him that changed him. He had no idea why the sudden change.

In addition, he is also very unsettled throughout his life since then, even through his college life. He felt that something was amiss in his life. There seemed to be a void in his heart that can never be filled. There is a kind of hunger that he could not describe. However, since he had no idea what it is, he let it be.

After his college, around age 21, he was attending some outside classes. It happened there was once he forgot to bring his book, and ended up sharing with this man who is 40 plus. At the end of the day, after dinner together, they even exchanged contact number. Interesting…

The best part is this. Not only did they exchange contact, the man invited him to his rented house. Xiao Guai got to know the family. It came to a point, after just a few months, the man trust Xiao Guai so much that he gave Xiao Guai the key to the house. He is free to enter and leave the house as and when. What the…

That was the rented house. After the old hag had his new owned house which is pretty nearby, he shifted in. Xiao Guai, had the keys to his new house as well. And at times, when it is too late and it is too cold, Xiao Guai would just stay over at his place.

Then came one faithful day, after spending the night over at his place, he decided to bring his kid for a jog in the vicinity. Along the way, he saw a sign that reads ‘Jesus loves you’, hanging outside a church. He had a very vague reminiscence of seeing it somewhere before. Then he remembered the aunt telling him that phrase before, or maybe had read in the bible before. He then walked in. There was a surge of peace and satisfaction in his heart. The void is filled. The huger is fed. He sent the boy home and came back again to get the sensation. He then asked one of the members of the church about this very feeling.

After gaining the knowledge, he received Christ there and then. CLAP CLAPS!!

Isn’t it amazing how God arranged everything just in place? From Primary 5, all the way to providing him a weird old hag that allows him free access to his house, then happened so nicely that he saw that sign on that very day at that place. God is definitely divine.

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That is not all. There is still a load of stuff that he shared with us about that very night. However, I am too tired to share the whole thing now. And I guess I would feel lazy to type it out the next time. Ha.

Divine Meet with Xiao Guai (Part 1)

2009-01-20T23:45:00.001+08:00

God is Divine. He sure knows how to plan His time well. Every second matters in His precise arrangement. The people we meet, the things we do, the troubles we face, the place we are born in, the parents we have, the looks we have, our future, all these has been planned out perfectly in the wisdom and knowledge of the Most High God. I am truly amazed at how God works in our life. All the little details and how it all forms up together never fail to keep me awe.

The reason for this sudden proclamation is my divine meet with Xiao Guai, a Chinese from China.

The story begins when Yi Qin and I happen to be at this void deck area around his house. We were practicing worship for Caregroup the next day and we chose that spot because there were sockets for me to charge my laptop. This is the first thing I thank God about - POWER SOCKETS AT VOID DECK AREA!!! Continuing, honestly, we could have been at any other place to practice that night, and the truth is, we have never been there at that spot together before. Well, my believe is that that was how God planned it to be.

Soon later, halfway through the second song, we saw this smiley red topped guy and gentle faced, walking around us with his hands placed in the back pocket. Yi Qin’s first thought was if we were too noisy and had disturbed the neighbors. So he asked if we were. It turned out that he was just strolling around. Ok, next thing to thank God about -We weren’t disturbing the neighbors though we were pretty loud.

Out of a curious mind, he then asked what we were doing. Well, he asked in Chinese and with the accent he spoke in, he is from China. And obviously, being a sucker in Chinese, I don’t know how to reply him telling him ‘Praise and Worship’ in Chinese. Yi Qin, being the smarter one only in Chinese, said ‘Zhan Mei Jing Bai’. His smile grew wider. Then after a few rounds of questioning, we realized that he was from Marine Parade’s Church Of Singapore. And he actually knows Hope Church due to an incidental meet up with a Hope Church member from the adults group. Our smile grew wider. Thank God for the connection.

He sat beside me and watched us practice ‘The Potter’s Hand’, trying to sing along with the lyrics, though he could not catch much of it. But thankfully he knows the song and knows a bit of English. After 5 minutes or so, we paused. Yi Qin had to do some things. I felt weird leaving him there sitting by my side being so quiet. So I post a question, ‘Do you know the song?’, and yes he did, there is even a Chinese version of that song. Then, Yi Qin continued asking some questions regarding his stay in Singapore and how he got to know God and such.

This is where the real interesting story begins.

In summary, he shared about his job in Singapore, how he got to know God, the experiences that he had with God, how he got into the church in Marine Parade, how has God been leading his life and basically, his spiritual journey with God.

The whole story is freaking long. And so, I have decided to post this up first and continue my story, or rather his story, in the next post.

To be continued…

25 Random Rubbishy things

2009-01-19T08:50:00.001+08:00

Title: 25 Random Rubbishy Things

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

1. Rubbishy things are not good, so i decided to write at least some not so rubbish stuffs
2. I would like to begin by announcing that i have found my greatest love, GOD!!
3. Secondly, Yiqin is my closest friend
4. I treasure close and biblical friendships
5. I am stupid enough to begin this
6. I am already thinking of who to tag
7. My name is really Winstar
8. My Chinese name is Kai Huai, 'kai huai da xiao' that 'kai huai' (which kinda means happy)
9. I like to irritate and disturb some people
10. I call Yiqin's mum mum and even hugged her before (HAHAHAHA)
11. My 'worstest' habit is slacking (changing)
12. I am pretty OK in singing
13. This is my favourite number
14. I was from Chinese dance when i was primary one because my crush was in there
15. I consider myself 'Jack of all trades' in sports
16. I have 3 scars on my body that is caused by my brother
17. Spending time with people is my favourite hobby
18. I meet people when I am tired and need some energy (Other than God)
19. I love watching movies, especially thrillers and love stories
20. One of the saddest thing in my life was i lost 4 years collection of encouragement cards
21. I am very slow in reading
22. My year objective is to FOCUS!!
23. My phone has served me for close to 2 years
24. All the phones that i have before are flip phones
25. I jump and skip around at night when i am with my close friends
26. You must be curious why i wrote the twenty sixths..Just to thank you for reading..You must be a friend to have read this..

Most High

2009-01-18T23:47:00.000+08:00

Title: Most High

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
God of Wonders - Various
God will make it OKAY…

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
You’ve got a Friend in Me – Randy Newman
Friendship?

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Like A Star – Corrine Bailey Rae
Well, I feel like a star everyday!! LOL

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Did you get my message? – Jason Mraz
Get the gospel message known...

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Forever – Full House
Invest in things that last forever…

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
I Will Survive – Storm Large
I will survive through all bad circumstances..

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Sometimes When We Touch – Olivia
Palm on the face… HAHA

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
You Said – Don Moen
Things that others say?

WHAT IS 2+2?
Time and Confusion - Anberlin
Confused…

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Reflector – Planet Shakers
Someone who reflects who I am

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Get High – F.I.R
HAHAHAHAHAHA… get high when I think of the person…

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Love Song for a Savior – Jars of Clay
Good answer…

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
From the Inside Out – Hillsong United
Superman? Wearing the undergarments from the inside out… HAHAHA

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Drowning – Backstreet Boys
Out of breath…

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Lord of All – Hillsong United
Wow… not a bad thing at all…

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
It Ends Tonight – The All-Americans Reject
HAHAHAHA… It’s the end of the relationship…

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Voice of Hope – Abundant Life Ministries
Goodness… There is only hope when I am gone…

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Everythings Changed – Planet Shakers
Change…

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
No No - Westlife
They cannot say NO to my request

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
You and I – Michael Buble
Yeap… depends on who is reading this…

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Home - Westlife
Longing for home…while I am going back home

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
So Real –BoA
Being too realistic in life?

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Angels Brought Me Here – Guy Sebastian
Angels tickled me when they were bringing me…

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Imagine Me Without You – Jaci Velasquez
Awww….

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Miracle - HowL
If only a miracle happens…

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Seat Next to You – Bon Jovi
Ha… You will eat me up…

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Qing Tian – Jay Chou
Qing Tian = QT…QT = Time with God… I guess God likes me…

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
When It Rains - Paramore
I need to bring the umbrella…

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Run - Kutless
It truly is hurtful to my muscles…

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Most High – Hillsong
Yeah… Must be highest in my ‘stupid things I did’ list…

Can I Borrow $25

2009-01-15T16:39:00.001+08:00

Here comes another story that i came across the other day.

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Can I Borrow $25?

  
 A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year
 old son waiting for him at the door.
 
 SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'
 
 DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.
 
 SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'
 
 DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?'
the man
 said angrily.
 
 SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an
hour?'
 
 DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'
 
 SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.
 
 SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'
 
 The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can
 borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you
 march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you
 are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish
 frivolities.'
 
 The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.
 
 The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's
 questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?
 
 After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think:
 
 
 Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he
 really didn't ask for money very often The man went to the door of the
 little boy's room and opened the door.
 
 'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.
 
 'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.
 
 'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the
man.
 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's
the $25
 you asked for.'
 
 The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he
yelled.
 Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.
 
 The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.
 
 The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his
 father.
 
 'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father
 grumbled.
 
 'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy
replied.
 
 'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home
 early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'
 
 The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he
 begged for his forgiveness.
 
 It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We
 should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some
 time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do
 remember to share that $50 worth of your time with someone you love.

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God, i pray that You will help me be observant and keep a look out for people in my life. People who need my time, such as my family, close friends, caregroup members and my sheep. I pray that i will be able to avail more and more of my time to people around me, though i can never avail myself as much as You do. Also, please bless me with tons and tons of money so that i am able to buy time from those whom i love. Amen.

Happy Birthday to me…

2009-01-14T21:12:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, 13 Jan, was my birthday. Though there isn’t like a big party or whatsoever, i am still happy. I really appreciate and am grateful to all who had congratulated me on my 19th. Through those messages, handshakes and gifts have i felt loved, at least i know that there i have a pinch of worth in you. Ha.

Here is the list of people whom have wished me ‘Happy Birthday’ through messaging (in order)…

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1. Florence

2. Shufen

3. Yiling

4. Kenneth

5. Shai

6. Winnie

7. Nicholas Seah

8. Lestari

9. Huijuan

10. Yiqin

11. Ernst

12. Fiona

13. Kim

14. Stanley

15. Mandon

16. Sheena

17. Perry

18. Esther Leow

19. Yushan

20. Debbie

21. Alfonso (Won the ‘first person to wish me a belated birthday’ award)

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Here is the list of people whom have given me a surprise celebration or gift for my birthday…

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· Dennis Loh

· Kim Ho

· Denise

· Yingjie

· Aloysius

· Alvin

· Kenneth

· Yiling

· Donovan

· Serhan

· Sherry

· Linxin

· Sion

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Others (through other means)…

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· Dennis

· Alvin

· Florence

· Kim

· Gabriel

· Justin

· Gwen Khoo

· Daniel Cheah

· Sharlene

· Fongyee

· Kate

· Liyin

· Joshua

· Yenc

· Yanyu

· Crystal

· Simon

· Jasmine Loh

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Special thanks to Dennis Loh, my beloved mentor, for being the earliest to wish me (Saturday) and giving me a boxer and short pants.

Special thanks to Denise Leong, Yap Yingjie and Aloysius Ooi to spend my first few hours being 19. I really enjoyed the oversized ‘tang yuan’, cocktail and prayers from you peeps.

Special thanks to Kenneth, Yiling, Donovan and Serhan for having a birthday lunch with me and giving me a shoe.

Special thanks to Kim Ho for making the effort down to my house to pass me a cake.

Special thanks to Alvin Lim for celebrating my birthday one day after.

From the deepest recesses of my heart, THANK YOU!!!!

Above all else, i thank my God, the Creator of the heavens and the earth, for creating me. He had made me unique and special, no one else has the same experience or personality as me. I am who i am and no one can take my place in the sight of God. I also thank the Lord, my rock and fortress, for protecting me and keeping me safe for the past 19 years.

Thank You God!!

Re: Biblical Friendship

2009-01-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

I RESOLVE TO APPLY POINT 9 OF ‘BIBLICAL FRIENDSHIP’!!!

I WILL BE A DELICATE FRIEND!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Serious……

Rasheed!!!

2009-01-09T18:40:00.001+08:00

Rasheed!!!

If you guys don’t know, Rasheed is my sheep, someone whom i am taking care of, my mentee. He has been under my care for around 7 or 8 months, ever since April last year when he decided to come back to church. From then till now, i bet many would testify as well, he has grown from a boy to an older boy (HAHAHAHA), all thanks to God.

As i did his 2008 reflection together with him, we came to realize how much God has worked in his life. And after analyzing it the whole year, we identified two things that turned his spiritual life around. It was because of this two things that brought about such exponential growth.

Firstly, it was fasting and praying.

Every year, during the Ramadan, Muslims have to fast from dusk till dawn. Rasheed, being in a Muslim family and having Muslim friends looking at him, had to fast as well. Thus, he set out to fast and pray during the period as well. One of his prayer during his fast was to grow even more and get closer with God. This was during the October period. So he fasted and prayed.

And change began.

For the next 2 months, in November and December, God really grew him. Rasheed began to see the importance of serving God, he began to become more teachable, he began to ask questions about God, he began to want to change, he began to care for his brother and so much more. There were so many changes in his life. Praise be to God.

Secondly, it was time.

After thinking through, i realize that i spent a whole lot of time together with him during this holiday. Because of his availability, he came to find me every now and then to spend time with me. Such as those nights when i had to do my projects overnight. Not only so, he also stick with me everywhere i go. Literally. He will always want to to go wherever i go just hang around me. HAHAHA. Not that i am praising myself, but seriously, it was through these times that God made him see how i live and lead my life. Though we may not know what exactly he learnt, but one thing for sure was that he caught my spirit and convictions. He have seen how to lead a Christian life. And it was through those times that i was able to teach when there is any opportunity. That is why another factor that made his life grow was time.

Seriously, i do not think that i have done a lot. I do not think that i shepherded him exactly well. So, it is really God who used me to teach him and impart to him.

Ultimately, it was God in the picture that allowed him to grow so much just within this 2 months.

2 learning points

1) If one wants to grow, fast and pray about it; depend on God. How much you desire and lay your dependence on Him will determine how much you will grow.

2) It takes deliberate effort to take lots of time and make lots of effort to disciple someone. Life impartation is crucial.

2009-01-04T10:33:00.003+08:00

Friendship is something I hold very dearly in my life.

I went to search on the topic ‘Biblical Friendship’ and this is what I have found…
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"Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labour. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow." (Ecc. 4:9-10) (See note 1) Although we have many brothers and sisters in the body of Christ, only a few of us have close personal friends. Here is a list of ten biblical characteristics of friendships. Strengthen and examine your friendship in the light of the Word of God. Don't try to do anything forcefully, but simply put it under His loving instruction.

1. THERE ARE ONLY A FEW CLOSE FRIENDS
Prov. 18:24 "He that maketh many friends doeth it to his own destruction: but there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother." We live in a covenant with all believers in the body of Christ, but with some we are particularly tied together through the Holy Spirit. Look at Jesus' example: He has His twelve, His three - Peter, James and John - and His one: John. This is not exclusion but is the only way to practise friendship properly.

2. A FRIEND GIVES HIS LIFE
John 15:13 "Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." Don't take this too spiritually. "To lay down one's life" also means the readiness to put oneself back to serve the other person, instead of putting the other one back to serve one's self. It is the readiness to take the needs of the friend more seriously than your own. Think of John the Baptist: "But the friend of the bridegroom, which standeth and heareth him, rejoiceth greatly because of the bridegroom's voice...He must increase, but I must decrease." (John 3:29-30)

3. A FRIEND KNOWS YOU DEEPLY
John 15:15 "But I have called you friends; for all things that I heard from my Father I have made known unto you." A friend is someone in front of whom you can be totally sure, take off your mask, and slowly get closer to them - be your own self. That takes time and is also risky, but this is exactly what the Apostle says in James 5:16 "Confess therefore your sins one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed."

4. A FRIEND LOVES WITHOUT CONDITIONS
Prov. 17:17 "A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity."

5. A FRIEND GIVES YOU GOOD ADVICE
Prov. 27:9 "Ointment and perfume rejoice the heart: so doth the sweetness of a man's friend that cometh of hearty counsel." Another characteristic of a friend, is to hear the voice of God with you: "I haven't got a clear guideline for you in this matter, so therefore let's fast and pray together about this."

6. A FRIEND SPEAKS THE TRUTH IN LOVE
Prov. 27:6 "Faithful are the wounds of a friend..." The Bible tells us to "walk in the light" to have real fellowship with each other (1 John 1:7). We all need somebody with enough love for us to tell us the truth about ourselves. Not only what we want to hear, but what we should hear as well.

7. A FRIEND ENCOURAGES YOU
Job 6:14 "To him that is ready to faint kindness should be shewed from his friend; even to him that forsaketh the fear of the Almighty." Job needed more than what his own wife gave him: "Renounce God, and die." Nice sympathy, isn't it? We all need encouragement, confirmation and support in our Christian lives.

8. A FRIEND ALSO DOESN'T FEAR A CLASH WITH YOU
Prov. 27:17 "Iron sharpeneth iron; so a man sharpeneth the countenance of his friend." Clashes can't be avoided in such close relationships. The durability of a friendship will be tested; it will be seen if it is really welded together with the love of Christ. We then have the choice of either drawing back from being offended, or of rebuking that friend, or of solving the conflict in love.

9. A FRIEND IS DELICATE
Prov. 26:18+19 "As a madman who casteth firebrands, arrows, and death; so is the man that deceiveth his neighbour, and saith, Am not I in sport?" To put it simply, a friend is aware of your sensitive areas. They refrain from sarcasm, mean jokes and exposures.

10. A FRIEND IS LOYAL
Prov. 16:28b "A whisperer separateth chief friends." Prov. 17:9b "He that harpeth on a matter separateth chief friends." In the hour of betrayal, with rumours and accusations, it will be obvious who really stands by us. Would you like to have friends who show these characteristics? Then ask the Holy Spirit to write them into your own heart, and start to practise them. And when you try this, remember the friend who sticks closer to you than anybody else. "All things therefore whatsoever ye would that men should do unto you, even so do ye also unto them: for this is the law and the prophets." (Mat. 7:12)
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As I reflect on my relationship with a few other people, I realize that I have so much more to change. I really want to be a better friend, supporting one another till the very end.

2008-12-28T12:30:00.003+08:00

I just recieved a mail and read a story. It goes like this...
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Title: The mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee

When things in your lives seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began , he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded t o fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls .

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.

He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

' Now,' said the professor as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things--your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions-- and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.

The sand is everything else--the small stuff. 'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

'Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18.. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first --the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand .'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. 'I'm glad you asked.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'
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It just thought me a precious lesson. Time is limited. We should always invest in what is really really important.

This is really timely.

Yesterday's sermon talked about how can we invest our time and what should be the important things in life.

And this morning i was listening to one of Pasto Wayne Cordeiro's teaching. He was talking about what are few things in life that we want to be good at. We cannot be good at everything. Thus, we have to selectively choose what we want to be really good at and known for at the end of our lives. For example, be a great businessman, great friend, great counselor and even be a good husband. These are the few things that we have to put time and effort to learn ad grow in. Which is also known as the golf balls in the story.

These questions came ringing in my mind, 'What is worth investing my time and whlole life for?' 'What aremy priorities?' 'How do i want to live my life to make the most benefit out of it?'

For me, anything that will last for eternity are the things that really matters. How about you?

2008-12-24T04:33:00.001+08:00

Ha… This is so cute. Tomorrow’s Christmas service and it’s a big and long day. And it’s 330 in the morning and I am stuck at someone’s house. Ha…… Reason being I am just too lazy to walk home now. Initially, when it was earlier, I would not mind walking home at all. But I decided to catch up with someone and was invited in since there was some food to eat. So went in and stayed a while longer. Then it started raining. And I was like, ‘Oh gosh!! I am stuck!!’ Oh well, so I decided to stay a little longer. And guess what, the rain ended and I was too lazy to move. Ha… So I stayed over instead.

And since I have got nothing to do now, I shall blog a bit. Ha…

God is really interesting. During camp, despite all the cries for Him to speak, neither did he say anything specific to me nor something that will blow my mind. I was of course kind of like ‘oh well….’ And then, the weird thing about God is this, He spoke to me when I was walking here. Ha… Bet He wanted to train me to be more patient to wait for Him to speak. And also He waited for the appropriate time when I was ready to receive. And God sure knows the perfect opportunity eh. He used something to spark off whole thing. That is ‘Why is the girls group growing faster than the guys group?’

And so God spoke a lot of things which I am really lazy to think at this hour. I was actually writing a whole essay about it but oh well, I will just feed you with the totally summarized points. They are…
-The rise and fall of a group or organization is dependent on the leader
-One has to be a clean vessel to be effectively used by God
-Keep focused on what is eternal and do those things that are worthwhile
o Relationship with God
o Great Commission
-Surrender everything to God and allow Him to take control of every direction in life

That’s all for now folks. I am getting tired and my back is seriously aching. I guess I will go catch my sleep first.

Keep smiling=)

2008-12-10T12:20:00.002+08:00

Short personal testimony of my life before i know God, how i got to know God and after i know God...
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Prior to my conversion to a Christian, I was an aimless little dude. I roamed the void decks with my friends every day after school and played soccer. I could still remember the times when the police came and we had to run; slow ones name taken. I could only remember this very thing I did after school because every other thing were either purposeless or not worth remembering. I am lost.

Besides being aimless and lost in life, I was pretty trapped in trying to be someone else; insecurity. The whole story goes like this. When I was in Primary School, I was a rather like a ‘hot’ guy in school and I was pretty influential and stuffs like that. However, when it came to Secondary School, things changed. Initially I tried to be the head, tried to be funny, the one that people when people see will go ‘HE IS HERE!!’, those kind of thing. But things just didn’t turn out to be the way I wanted. I lost the glory, the fame, the influence. And thus, despite all the lost, I gained insecurity. This resulted in me trying to be someone else to complement my cliché.

Thank God, I didn’t have to struggle in this for long. One year down the road, after completing Secondary 1, which was 5 years ago, all these were no more. Someone by the name of BingLiang met me in the streets by God’s divine timing and shared to me this awesome thing, God. I was told that God loves me and He wants to have a relationship with me and He forgives all my sins. And I was like, “Wow…”, though I could not exactly comprehend the whole thing at that time. There and then, I received Christ in my life as my Lord and Savior.

And through these years, after I have received Christ in my life, I have really changed a lot. Definitely, I have found my reason for living, my purpose in life. I realized my life is meant for something, not for me to slack away without accomplishing anything at the end of my life. God light my way and now I am lost no more.

My life has also been transformed as I realized my security in God. I learnt that God loves me for who I am and I don’t have to try to be someone else. I just had to be who I am, God made me this way. Neither do I need to look for people that I have to try to fit into. This family, the church, had provided me friends who accept me for who I am as well. Isn’t this just great?

Now, as I reflected on the past few years of being a Christian, I would say that I will never regret the decision I made to receive God in my life. The only regret that I should ever have is ‘Why did I know God so late?’
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God can change your life too.......

2008-12-05T19:59:00.002+08:00

Some fella, who is as irritating as a pest, kept urging me to update my blog. And thus, being irritated obviously, i decided to post something today since i have got a bit of time to spare. Not only so, but also, i have just heard an interesting story which i think is very applicable to my my Christian faith. Allow me to plunge into the story...
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Once upon a time, long long time ago in a far away land, there was a bird. Let me just name it, Berd.

Berd was alone, on its way to somewhere far far far away, but has yet to decide on where to go. Thus, Berd just flew and found itself ending up in Antarctica. Berd, being stupid, having no idea that the chill would immobilize its wings, ended up plunging down towards the snow and landed straight into it. Berd's wings were stiffed. At a dire state like this, there was nothing it could do but shiver and await its death.

Then came along a cow (which I have no idea why it was there, but that’s how the story goes), which is named Kau, and it had an urge for a release. It was scanning the whole area, looking for a spot best for its release. “Uh-huh!!” it exclaimed, spotting the beak of Berd protruding at the surface of the snow. “It is a sign.....” it continued. And there it went towards it, dug a hole (without noticing the Berd’s existence), and poured a mud slide right into the hole, burrowing Berd in a pool of shit. Berd, though felt like flying a away, was helpless and could only cry out within, “!@#$%^&@#$%^&.” Obviously, after shitting, one would stay away from a distinctive amount of distance from the shit. So Kau left the place.

Miraculously, after a few couple of minutes, Berd’s wings could move again. The shit, which was warm (assuming that the shit remained warm throughout the couple of minutes), heated the chill in the wings and freed it from its immobilization. Berd, having overcome a life threatening situation, was overjoyed. It flapped its wings once again (with all the shit still with it) and flew off far far away from this far away Land, Antarctica.

Naturally, after the long flight and excruciating experience, Berd was famished. It began its search for food. Along the way to far far away land, Berd’s eyes sparkled when it saw the luscious looking fruits lying on the kitchen table. Berd landed on a tree branch right next to the house and stared at the fruits powerlessly. It seemed so near, but yet so far. The fruits were locked behind the windows.

Thankfully, there came the pet cat of the house, Kate. Putting on a wide and suspicious beam on the face, Kate crawled towards the window; its eyes never left Berd at anytime. Slowly but steadily, the crafty Kate slides open the window panes and the fruits were unlocked.

Berd, still as stupid as ever, could not perceive Kate’s intention. It was overwhelmed by the hunger and craving that it took no notice of the situation. Thus, it flew right into Kate’ trap and Kate devoured Berd (with the shit still hanging onto Berd).

*Contents within the () are there for fun (now laugh).
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The moral of the story is this:
- People who give you ‘shit’ at times might not be the ones that harms you but wants you to benefit.
- People who are good to you might not be the ones who really love you but has their own intentions.

Similarly, God’s loves for us at times are not exactly the ‘lovey-dovey’ kind. We don’t exactly experience God being good to us all the time. Sometimes, God will just give us ‘shitty’ times, such as disciplining us when we do wrong. Well, those times are not supposed to make us suffer or restrict us, but to keep us safe and to grow us. God’s motivation behind everything that He is doing for us is pure love, not that He loves to see us suffer.

Proverbs 3:11-12
My son, do not despise the LORD's discipline and do not resent his rebuke, because the LORD disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in.

Our Father’s love is the basis for all that He does for us. Never doubt it!!

2008-11-26T21:53:00.000+08:00

Some people complained thatmy blog is too wordy. I realized it too. Ha. I hate reading wordy things too, so i will be posting more photos and other things from now on. Hehehe. And it begins now....

So..today is an introduction of the people that plays a part in my life..

This is my 'hip' dad..edited by my brother

This....my dad and my brother..

Now...this is the most irritating person in my life..yet my closest closest friend..the one who grew up with me..the one whose mother i call mum..ha..

Here i another very close buddy..a strong spiritual mate..

This very man is only second to Jesus when it comes to helping me grow in my spiritual life..his love and guidance in my life has led me to this day....

This very guy knew me since P4..and we are turning really gay..

Another one that i just have to mention..

Combined together..we are the spiritual hunks of Y-East....

My beloved sheep....

Here..my closest closest group of friends..the people who stayed behind in East to support and grow East together..East TP peeps..

Whole big family of EAST!!!

The youth singers....

This is my poly class..taking photo on our first formal presentation...guess wo is flying?

And here..some of my secondary school classmates during prom....

My form teacher and I

These certain individuals are friends who are precious to me as well..and have influenced me in a way or another..

Kim..

Sheena..

Apinun..

QianJing..

Gwen..

Sharlene..

The End......

2008-11-02T12:29:00.002+08:00

This is really stupid and funny..hahahahaha=)

2008-11-01T01:18:00.000+08:00

2008-10-26T16:39:00.000+08:00

After service yesterday, at around 6pm, my group went to a church somewhere at Bedok. It was really stupid cause one of the reason why we went was because food were provided. HAHAHA. But of course, we are not typical Singaporeans, the main reason we went there was to accompany Howard and Alvin, our 2 young ones, cause they needed to attend for some Boys Brigade thing. Well, they didn’t really care much about that though, it was purely the food and the event that we all were after. Ha.
When we arrived, it was about 7pm. And guess what, the event started at 5pm. HA. The some of the seniors there were like questioning us about it and it is really embarrassing. Oh well, at least they were Christians too and understood the whole situation. Ha. And they organized us pretty efficiently. Some of us who were interested in joining their floor ball game were quickly placed into teams.
The game started not long after. While some were in the game, some were watching and the others were enjoying the free food. I was in the game, playing for Team 3 together with this trained floor ball player as my team leader. There were really high hopes of us being the champion in the beginning because we didn’t lose any game at all. We were pretty ‘zai’, partly because of our team captain, but ultimately because I was in that team. HA. It was only until one game, when I was playing as a substitute, did the opponent team manage to score. Prior to that, we did not conceit any goals at all. HA. But I think it was really stupid. The reason why we lost that match and conceited that goal was because the defender was not paying attention at all. He was tying his shoe laces. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!!! HA. The opponents came charging in and he continued on without even budging. Goodness. Ha. Oh well, most of us still enjoyed the game. Ha. And in the end, we still managed to receive our glorious title of the champion team. HAHAHAHA. All thanks to me=)
Through the whole game of floor ball, I have learnt a lot of principles, principles as a team leader and a team player. There were at least 10 key pointers that I took home yesterday and I noted them down. And I am actually very lazy to type them out now. HAHAHA

While I was learning, I made sure that my disciple was learning as well. I grabbed Mandon along and taught him about the habit of learning. I shared abit to him what I learnt and taught him how to turn anything in his surrounding to be a learning source. It was really a wonderful experience as I was not the only one that learnt, but they learnt to be a learner as well. Ha. YAY!!

This is the kind of opportunities leaders should catch to teach our disciples and sheep.=)

2008-10-23T08:48:00.002+08:00

Hey..take this personality test!!

http://www.ipersonic.com/index.html

Then tell me what you are man.

I am a DI.

2008-10-21T22:23:00.003+08:00

I find all these so true....hahahahahaha..

But thank God women of God are different..

2008-10-19T13:20:00.002+08:00

Amazing story by an amazing guy. Very touching...

(Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap Clap)

Tearing?

'In God's eyes, i am whole'..amen

God never make mistakes. He made us the way we are. We just got to put our trust in Him, trust that he has a plan for us in every situation we are in. He will turn our weaknesses, which we cannot run away from, into something great. Thank You God!!

In God there is always hope..........

2008-10-18T23:57:00.000+08:00

Leaders have 2 goals. First is their own goal. Second is the goal to draw others and influence them to achieve the same goal.

The ability to draw and influence others to achieve the same goal is called leadership.

Thus, to be a leader, one must have a dream, a goal and a vision in mind to even begin with. Without a vision, a leader is basically like a manager. It just manages the group and sustains it. It does not have the motivation to improve or achieve greater things. Without vision, the group is directionless. Now, who would want to join this kind of group? People will get tired of it and leave. A leader needs to have vision. For instance, Martin Luther King’s famous quote, ‘I have a dream.’

Not only does a leader need a vision. A leader needs to know how to draw people and influence them. This process is also known as vision casting. Whereby a leader displays his vision to the congregation in hope that they catch the vision he is talking about and challenging them to follow him to accomplish the vision. Hitler is a good example. It was because of his regular talks with the people, vision casting, which influence the people to follow him. People caught his vision.

Now the crux of it all is this. Every one of us, as Christians, has the capability to become a leader. Because we all have the same vision, vision to see the whole world won for Jesus; vision to accomplish the Great Commission. This is our vision. This is our goal. This is what we are aiming towards. Thus, when we catch this vision, we have the qualification to be a leader. What is required of us then is to learn how to draw and influence people to catch the vision.

However, one thing we must always remember. Our head, our boss, our leader of all, is Jesus. We are merely catching His vision and influencing other people to His vision. We are simply just followers as well. Thus, when we become a leader, we have got to always remind ourselves that it His kingdom that we are building, not ours. If a Christian leader fails to realize this, the group will definitely crumble one day.

God’s vision is what we are working for because it is everlasting. It is worth it.

2008-10-07T12:53:00.005+08:00

I have just changed my blog's song. The song playing currently is called 'Fever' by Michael Buble, which originated from Elvis Presley. Ha. Random huh....? I might be performing this song on the 19th November. Ha. Initially i didn't even know this song. It was only untill the other singers were suggesting that i might be able to pull off this low song. Well, i seriously thought that it is a good idea since it was something new for me and it was something for me. Ha. But the only funny thing is that this song is very sexy in a way. Ha. Take a look at the lyrics as you see Micahel perform. (Press the red cross at the top to stop the music first)

Enjoy.....

Never know how much I love you, never know how much I care
When you put your arms around me, I get a fever that's so hard to bear
You give me fever - when you kiss me, fever when you hold me tight
Fever - in the the morning, fever all through the night.
Sun lights up the daytime, moon lights up the night
I light up when you call my name, and you know I'm gonna treat you right
You give me fever - when you kiss me, fever when you hold me tight
Fever - in the the morning, fever all through the night.

Everybody's got the fever, that is something you all know
Fever isn't such a new thing, fever started long ago.
Romeo loved Juliet, Juliet she felt the same
When he put his arms around her, he said "Julie baby you're my flame"
Thou givest fever, when we kisseth, fever with thy flaming youth
Fever - I'm afire, fever yea I burn forsooth.
Captain Smith and Pocahontas had a very mad affair
When her Daddy tried to kill him, she said "Daddy-O don't you dare"
Give me fever - with his kisses, fever when he holds me tight
Fever - I'm his Missus, Oh daddy won't you treat him right.

Now you've listened to my story, here's the point I have made:
Chicks were born to give you fever, be it Fahrenheit or Centigrade
They give you fever - when you kiss them, fever if you live and learn
Fever - till you sizzle, what a lovely way to burn.
What a lovely way to burn.
What a lovely way to burn.

Just a random quote...

Like the clay that surrenders everything to the Potter's hand, so is my life surrendered to my Creator's plan.

Loveliest,
Claest

2008-09-28T12:10:00.001+08:00

How Do You Develop Self-Control?
by Rick Warren

High achievers usually have one obvious thing in common: personal discipline. Successful people are willing to do things that average people are unwilling to do.

Successful people master their moods. They live by their commitments, not their emotions. People who do the right thing even when they don't feel like it accomplish most of what gets done in the world! "A person without self-control is as defenseless as a city with broken down walls." Proverbs 25:28 (LB)

Successful people watch their words. They put their minds in gear before opening their mouths. "He who guards his lips guards his life." Prov. 13:3

Successful people restrain their reactions. How much can you take before you lose your cool?" If you are sensible you will control your temper. When someone wrongs you, it is a great virtue to ignore it." Prov. 19:11 (GN)

Successful people stick to their schedule. If you don't determine how you will spend your time you can be sure that others will decide for you! "Live life with a due sense of responsibility … make the best use of your time." Eph. 5:15-16 (Ph)

Successful people manage their money. They learn to live on less than what they make and they invest the difference. The value of a budget is that it tells your money where you want it to go rather than wondering where it went! "The wise man saves for the future, but the foolish man spends whatever he gets." Prov. 21:20
(LB)

Successful people maintain their health. That way they can accomplish more and enjoy their achievements. "Each of you should control his own body, keeping it pure and treating it with respect." 1 Thess. 4:4

Now, where do you need to develop self-control?

The disciplines you establish today will determine your success tomorrow.

But it takes more than just willpower for lasting self-control. It takes a power greater than yourself. Think about this promise from the Bible this week: "God does not give us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, love and self-control." 2 Tim. 1:7

The more I accept God's control over my life, the more self-control He gives me!

2008-09-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

I bow in reverence of Your majesty,
Expressing an awe of Your beauty;

I sing praises to You all my days,
For Your worthiness I am ever amazed;

I lift up my hands in surrender,
My whole is the least I can offer;

I have only one request for the Lord,
Saturate me with Your presence oh my God.

2008-09-23T00:43:00.002+08:00

Latest learning from Proverbs...
'The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge' (Proverbs 1:7a)
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The main purpose of the book of Proverbs is for one to gain wisdom. Before gaining wisdom, one must have knowledge. For the definition of wisdom is to have the ability to apply knowledge correctly. Without knowledge, there is no basis or wisdom to work on.
Then before gaining knowledge, one must fear the Lord. Here in the Old Testament, fear for God means to have reverence for and in awe of God. It is not being afraid of God that kind of fear. So, why having reverence for and in awe of God is the beginning of knowledge?
Firstly, before we have reverence for God, we need to see how Great and Big and Marvelous and Spectacular and Powerful God is. As we come to know this truth, we will be in reverence of God the Almighty. Then, as we acknowledge God’s traits like those stated, we will be humbled to the lowest of lowest and know that we are just mere lousy beings. Thus, I say that fearing the Lord equals to acknowledging God’s awesomeness, and the state of being humbled.
Thus, I conclude that only when we are humble, and then are we able to gain more knowledge. Because when we are humble, we seek to learn more and improve ourselves. When we are prideful and think highly of ourselves, not God, we will not listen to what other people say and follow our own proclaimed ‘god-like’ knowledge.
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Practical Point – I have got to always remind myself of God’s awesomeness so that I am always humbled before Him and so that I can gain more knowledge and wisdom.

2008-09-21T01:53:00.002+08:00

I am amazed how God used me to teach Mandon and Prana this morning before service.
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I came out with the teaching with the help of other teachings that I had before. Though I would not say that it is complete and perfect, I think it is pretty well done. Thanks to God who put in thoughts in my mind and convict me of certain principles. Thus, it inspired me to formulate the whole teaching, of course, according to the Word as well. I prepared the teaching well and was pretty sure I was ready to inspire them.
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On that faithful morning, I woke up late. What a day to start my day man!! I was like ‘Ah God, how am I going to inspire and deliver a message in this way!?’ Ha. But thanks be to God, His Spirit led me throughout. He gave me ideas and stories to share, even those that I have not prepared. The best part of the teaching was how God used me to speak of my convictions. Which I believe that those very words that flew out of my mouth have went through their ears and touched their hearts. Teaching of the Word is the impartation of knowledge together with the convictions of the heart. The success of the teaching is not whether the receiver received understanding or more knowledge, but catching the spirit and conviction of the teacher. This is so powerful.
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And guess what, almost all the points that I talked about were emphasized again in the sermon during service. So divine!!! My sheep surely got the whole message fully man. Thank God!! But of course, Pastor Jeff brought it across with more detail and understanding, which amazed me of the way he teaches.
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(Fast forward to the night, when I met up with Bingliang to catch up)
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Basically it was a very fruitful time spent together, displaying what true fellowship is all about. We shared the problems we were facing right now and the convictions with have. Then took turns to encourage and assure and empower and affirm one another; then followed by praying for one another.
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What a nice time spent with him and Him in it. Our relationship grew deeper, to another level closeness. I thank God for placing him into my life, really. I cannot express how much I love him as a friend and as a brother. All I know is that our relationship will continue to grow and be strong till the day there is no God in our lives.

2008-09-21T01:51:00.000+08:00

On my way to Caregroup on Wednesday, I witnessed, sadly, how life can be so meaningless when there is no God. Which have increased another level of burden for people in me..
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I was waiting for bus No.15 at the bus stop opposite Tampines safra on that faithful day, seating on the bench and had just decided to take out my MP3. Just at that moment when i was untangling the earpiece's wires, there was this Tampines Sec guy who sat right next to me. I didn't really cared much and continued to do my stuff. I plugged in the earpiece and started worshipping God. Then i started to take note of that guy who sat beside me. He is rugged. His shoes were torn, bag was dirty and collar was frayed. I sympathized for him. "He must have come from a very poor family" i thought as i observed. "Come on, go and talk to him...", these very words just bolt in my mind. "Oh man, this must be the prompting of the Holy Spirit!!!" Seems like i have got no way to hide. When He calls, i better answer. Though i hesitated for a while, thankfully i managed to realize in time that i was just wasting time. Ha. So stupidly, i took of my earpiece which i have just inserted and uttered "Hi.."
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It was pretty awkward at first as he was facing the other direction and didn't seem to have heard me. I scratched my head and headed for another round. "Hi!" He turned and look at me in a pretty embarrassed manner. As usual, i got to know his name, Isaac, and i shared mine and sparked of a conversation pretty easily. I then began to ask something that might help me kow him more, and also benefit for my research on youths these days. So, the conversation went on something like that.....
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me: so what do yo normally do?
Isaac: sleep..
me: ic..don't you go out with your friends?
Isaac: very seldom..
me: 0o0o0o0..how about games..do you play any?
Isaac: nope..
me: wow..so does it mean to say that you normally go home straight after school to sleep and perhaps watch television at night or something?
Isaac: uh..(nodded)
me: how about do you have any goals, or dreams, or anything you want to do in the future?
Isaac: nope..
me: so you want your life to be as it is for the rest of your life?
Isaac: dunno..(shrugged)
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MAN!!! Take a look that!! From there, together with the previous observations, I have inferred that he is a pretty insecure, lack of love and attention kind of person. And furthermore, what saddens me most was his attitude of letting his life rot. ‘Don’t he want to do something about it?’ Don’t he have a dream or achievement that he wants in life?’ ‘Is the generation really so deprived in a way that they have lost sight of a eternal longing to accomplish and achieve things?’ These are the thoughts that struck me and made me feel even more burden to share the gospel, bringing a purpose in their life. I just could not stand the kind of mediocre life that he is living.
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WE ARE MEANT TO RULE AND REIGN WITH HIM!!! Come on!! Dream BIG for Him!! Have ambitions and goals you want to do in the future!!! Imagine how you can play a part in this Great Commission!!!

Scrambled Thoughts

2008-09-12T01:54:00.003+08:00

Seriously my thoughts just wander around and think of things all over the place. Which caused my essay to be all around the place. Ha. it is pretty in sequence but it is very mesy and i am lazy to go arrange it. Ha.

First of all, let me share my experience of my fruitful day. I started my day going to the airport to find my passport. I was not exactly very anxious of it in the beginning since I thought it should not be a very big thing. It only started to dawn on me that it is a passport that I am losing, it is not something minor. Ha. So I began to panic a little since almost all the grads say they are not holding on to my passport and the lost and found area had not found my passport yet. I was advised to make a police report. However, God prompted me to have faith and not report it. I waited and waited and there were no signs that my passport could be found. SO I just decided to just continue on with what I want to do and let God move. I really had faith and believe that He will bring my passport back. I went ahead to eat and still had a prayerful heart. I told God that I will only report to the police if at the end of the day there is still no sign. And guess what, after finishing my meal, I received a message from aloy telling me that my passport is with him all the while. Ha. He did not know that I was searching for it all the while. Ha. I guess it is really God's plan so as to test my faith, it was really a faith journey for me. So really thank God in moving in such a way.

When I was about to go, I saw Mush and her grads group going to study together. Cool.

After which I went to tampines library to study with Haojun, Yihao and Mandon. The main objective which was to meet up with Haojun to connect him to the caregroup. Guess it was pretty alright, at least he got to know yihao and Mandon more. Thank God for arranging such opportunities. Ha.

Then I went home to put some stuff and rest a bit, guess I am getting old. Ha. I waited for Aloy to be ready and come to join to go airport to do some work such as read book and etc. So went over to the airport again the second time.

We went back pretty late and was expecting to go to Alvin's house to stay over. And guess what, the last bus is gone and I made a mistake by taking another bus. Ha. But I guess it was all planned out by God as well. (God sure knows how to use our mistakes to turn things around, such as in Macau when we were on our way back and I agreed to the condition of the bus ride. It was more expensive but we managed to get 'lao puo bing' ). We met daniel cheah in the bus and shared with him our experience in Hong Kong and he shared with us his experience preaching the first time. We refreshed and encouraged one another before sending him off. Ha.

And God sure did made another way for me to meet Him. I missed my last bus when I alighted at the trinity church area. Goodness!! I have to walk all the way home. (it didn’t occur to me that I can actually take another bus that can shorten the distance to walk). Ha. But it was a nice walk with God as I reflected my day.

Throughout the day, I met so many people from the church and everytime we saw each other, we encouraged and motivated and refresh others. This made me refreshed as well. So true to say that one who refreshes others will himself be refreshed. And imagine I saw so many people just in one day and in different places that could not have been expected. So it proves to show that the church is growing and it will be great when it grows to a point when wherever we go we will see someone and we can refresh someone with the testimonies we experience. COOL!!!

And as I was walking home. I thought of quite a lot of things. Started thinking about my conviction of being a Singapore youth pastor to influence in a greater measure. I believe strongly that being a Singapore youth pastor is one of the biggest thing one can do. Imagine there are so many youths now in Singpore and if one life is changed, there are many lives that are going to be changed as well. And Singapore is a very stratgic place where people come and study, people are educated. And when they are trained since young and will be ready at a young age,they can go out and plant church and do so much more in the Kingdom. So its really a big thing to be a Singapore youth pastor. Thus, i really respect pastor shirley, pastor jasmine and pastor jeff for doing such great work now. (its in a mess, if you get what i mean, good, if not, too bad)

Then it came to me that media is the key to how we can influence. That is how negative impact is made with its fullest measure and that is where we should start to make positive impact in the greatest measure as well. Imagine how much the youths are being influenced nowadays all because of the media. Games, pornography,and many more. All these things boil down to the root issue of sin. Which makes a point that that is why they need God. And the best way to reach out now is to begin with where is fell, the media.

Ultimately why we are doing all these is not because of a duty or something that we must do. But it should be motivated by love. To love God and from there, love others who God love, taking the very heart of God. Love what He loves and hate what He hates.

And to win the world, to even be the youth pastor, to even do anything greater, it starts from now and the small little things that I am doing. Such as taking care of my caregroup. I have got to do my best to influence these young ones in my group to love God. When we are faithful, God will bless us with more. And everything begins small, but it should not end small. I will grow more and more.

But we must always remember that it is not us who is doing all these things. We must remain to have a humble heart, telling God that I cannot do it. Ultimately it is not us who is doing it, but God using us. We are nothing but small little fries. So we have got to submit our whole will and everything to God and so as to let Him use greatly. We are small but God is big.

Then I prayed for the gift of knowledge and wisdom. I do not know why but I would like to move in this power gift so as to touch more lives and get them to serve God even more.

Christian life is very easy, it all boils down, back to the basics. We just have to have spiritual habits and keep our relationship with God. To love God with all our heart and with all our soul and with all our strength. So amazing.

Spiritual habits includes
- fellowship
- outreach
- devotions
- tithing
- fasting
- praying
- praise and worship

There are actually alotof Christian out there in Singapore now. But they are not living an authentic Christian life. They become christian because it has come to a point that it is a trendy thing to come to church. So, so come to church for God to meet their needs,and does nothing a normal christian should be doing. They just do not want to get out of their comfort zone and just do not want to commit. Oh well.

2008-07-11T23:45:00.001+08:00

Serve One Another
by Max Lucado

Jesus "set aside the privileges of deity and took on the status of a slave, became human! Having become human, he stayed human. It was an incredibly humbling process. He didn't claim special privileges. Instead, he lived a selfless, obedient life and then died a selfless, obedient death--and the worst kind of death at that: a crucifixion" (Phil. 2:7--8 MSG).

Let's follow his example. Let's "put on the apron of humility, to serve one another" (1 Pet. 5:5 TEV). Jesus entered the world to serve. We can enter our jobs, our homes, our churches. Servanthood requires no unique skill or seminary degree. Regardless of your strengths, training, or church tenure, you can ...

Love the overlooked. Jesus sits in your classroom, wearing the thick glasses, outdated clothing, and a sad face. You've seen him. He's Jesus.

Jesus works in your office. Pregnant again, she shows up to work late and tired. No one knows the father. According to water-cooler rumors, even she doesn't know the father. You've seen her. She's Jesus.

When you talk to the lonely student, befriend the weary mom, you love Jesus. He dresses in the garb of the overlooked and ignored. "Whenever you did one of these things to someone overlooked or ignored, that was me--you did it to me" (Matt. 25:40 MSG).

You can do that. Even if your sweet spot has nothing to do with encouraging others, the cure for the common life involves loving the overlooked. You can also ...

Wave a white flag. We fight so much. "Where do you think all these appalling wars and quarrels come from?" asks the brother of Jesus. "Do you think they just happen? Think again. They come about because you want your own way, and fight for it deep inside yourselves" (James 4:1 MSG). Serve someone by swallowing your pride. One more aspect of servanthood.....

Every day do something you don't want to do. Pick up someone else's trash. Surrender your parking place. Call the long-winded relative. Carry the cooler. Doesn't have to be a big thing. Helen Keller once told the Tennessee legislature that when she was young, she had longed to do great things and could not, so she decided to do small things in a great way. Don't be too big to do something small. "Throw yourselves into the work of the Master, confident that nothing you do for him is a waste of time or effort" (1 Cor. 15:58 MSG).

A good action not only brings good fortune, it brings God's attention. He notices the actions of servants. He sent his Son to be one.

When you and I crest Mount Zion and hear the applause of saints, we'll realize this: hands pushed us up the mountain too. The pierced hands of Jesus Christ, the greatest servant who ever lived.

2008-06-07T01:07:00.002+08:00

Awesome video
Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

2008-06-04T12:31:00.002+08:00

Exams are finally coming to an end in 2 days time. 2 more papers to go and HOlIDAY HERE I COME!! HA. Honestly speaking, i would not say that i am fully prepared for all the papers. LOL. There were quite alot of things to study and i was busy with ministry, camp drama performance and attending Word For Life. I had little time to study. Hmm.. but it aint that bad because even if i were to study in the afternoon, nothing could actually go into my brain. LOL. So the thing is this, i start studying at 12midnight. HAHAHA. Serious!! The times i tried studying in the afternoon just does not work. So i came out with this idea and it seems to work pretty well. I sleep from 9pm to 12midnight and start studying then. Then i sleep at 4 again to 7 and do a last minute recap. Well, some call me crazy though. Ha. But i think it is really God who is giving me the strength to carry on till today and knowing how to do the paper. Take for example BPM. I only started doing my notes yesterday at 12midnight and started memorizing at 1 plus. It's really crazy. I thought there was only a little to study but it turned out to be abit tougher than i thought. But oh well, at least the paper was still manageable. HA. Hopefully i can do really well in this test and glorify Him. kk. GTG meet my sheep and attend Word For Life later. HA. Studying t night!!!..

2008-06-01T23:04:00.002+08:00

Holidays are coming!! Camp is coming!! I am so so so excited man. But, before the reaching to those.. EXAMS ARE COMING TOO!!! HA. I should really condemn myself. My initial plan of study plan everyday failed totally. Yes i did study. But only at those times when i was with stan in the library. My gosh!! My laziness is definitely killing me. Though my spirit to do well is strong, my body to do it just does not get it. I think i am just going to fail this term man. Most of my friends are pretty confident and seemed to be totally prepared already. Haiz. At least today i did study abit at jacob's place. Even though it was really noisy and had to reherse for the drama, i managed to study abit of ISFUN. YAY!! Sense of acheivement!! But come to think of it, i am still gonna fail all the other 4 subs. LOL. Yesterday's overnight at Al's house was totally screwed. I was supposed to study and guess what, i did not even start. Just lay dead on the bed a few minutes upon arrival when he was bathing. HAiz. Oh well, guess by now i have no choice but to commit ALL my time to study already.
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What a torturous thing to fast on any other drink except for plain water. ARH!!!! Honestly there were many times i felt like compromising and giving up. The truth is that i can survive without plain water for months. Now to abstain from it is as if taking away my ife support. Ha. Anf guess what, my dad bought 2 bottles of green tea home yesterday!!! God sure nows how to play. HA. However, thankfully, i was able to pull through all this because everytime i got the temptation, i prayed and shifted my focus off it. Well, thats the main reason why we are fasting eh..to keep ourselves more focused on God and to rely on Him. YAY!! Ha. Another thing that made me motivated to overcome this is that i want to be an overcomer over my body. I do not want to be enslaved to what my body and feelings tell me anymore. I want to take control of it. The first step in leading others is to master the art of self-leadership.

Just spamming my thoughts=)

2008-05-28T00:21:00.003+08:00

For the past few days or weeks, i have been pretty troubled over myself. Yes myself. HA. I know it is back to the same issue again and i hate it. It just causes me to lose control over myself and everything seems to just collapse. HAHAHA. I know it sounds funny but when you come into this kinda situation you will feel the same way. But oh well, i really got to admit defeat and pull myself up again. This time round i really learnt big time and learnt it well. God sure knows the perfect way to deal with me. Everything just falls in place as if it were bits and pieces of a set of jigsaw puzzle. After reflecting for a period of time then was i able to grasp the tiny bit of what God was doing. It is just indescribable. What can i say? What can i do? But admit that God is in control of everything and just surrender everything to Him. HAHAHA. Good job there sending me down to the deepest of alleys and lifting me up again. The experience ends here. HAHAHA.

2008-05-25T14:31:00.002+08:00

Friday:
First time out with my 2 dearest classmates on Friday, Stan and Princess. Though it was kinda last minute, i actually managed to rush down to meet them. Really thank God i could make it down to join them. I had no intention to shop at all atually, do not have the finances to. HA. Besides, i was not feeling very good that day, back was aching and body was totally weak. Thats why acted kinda bored. LOL. Sorry peeps. But oh well, at least being there really made my day. At the end of the day, Stan bought 2 shorts and Princess bought 2 cardigans, and thats all. HA. The GSS was not fully on as yet i guess. LOL. All in all, thanks for the hunk and the babe=)
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Saturday:
SERVICE DAY!!! The sermon about fasting really reminded me of the importance of it. Had not really fasted for quite some time and guess it is time to really seek God face through fasting again. I will be starting my fast on dinner on Monday. So whoever sees me eating my dinner, please kill me. HAHA. I am in to conquer my body and make it my slave. HEHEHE...
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Sunday:
Today, Sunday, was a planning day for me. Stayed at home to plan my sheep's growth for this holiday. Really pray that this holiday of theirs will not be wasted, but really maximised to learn and be equipped and to grow. Besides the shephering, also sat down to plan my studying timetable!! My gosh!!! TERM TEST IS COMING!!! HA. Time really flies in poly man. A moment ago i just started school, and now i am having my tests, and soon, it will be holiday again. LOL. And guess what, though it is just a small period of time, our brains are squeezed with so many informations. Which means, there is a mountain load of things i have to study. ARH!!! HA. But its fine, I have God wth me=) In Him i will find my strength. HA.
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Random thought:
If we were to live this life, why not live it as if everyday was the last. Doing this really helps to save lots of regrets. Imagine if you were to die just the next morning, and there are still lots of things that you have not done or tried. So think, if you are at your death bed right now, what would be the thing that you have not done and want to do. Yeap. Thats it, go do it before regretting.=)

2008-05-16T23:50:00.002+08:00

Many have been asking me to update, some have suggested i put some of my own photos. Hmm.. maybe i would when i am less lazy. HA. Jie phrased it this way, 'blogging is a test of commitment'. What a way to phrase it man. But i believe it also take ones interest to keep this going. Ha. Well, i still think maybe i sould really try maintaining and updating my blog more often. Guess this is the end of this post and hopefully the next would be soon. The reason why i post this post is because i told Jie i will post today. So better to keep my word. LOL. Oh!!! Just to let you guys know that i am finally going out with my family after such a long time!! So exciting!! Going Kukup with my family and my dad's friends. I know my dad really wishes us to go together with him. Ha. Guess my bro and i have to really take this time out to really spent more time with dad. yeap. Will be off this Sunday and back on Monday. =)

2008-05-03T02:38:00.000+08:00

Hillsong Conference 2007 Opening
Uploaded by ajchz

2008-04-21T23:20:00.002+08:00

Hmm..... First day of school...... gettig bored..... oops. HA. Partly because of the cramped timetable i have today. All the way from 9am-6pm. Totally tired at the end. LOL. Especially the programming lecture, second last hour in school and i have to crack my brain and still barely get something out of it. HA. I really hate doing IT man, detest it to the core. I think it is because the lecturer made it difficult to understand. HA. I believe when the lab and practical starts i will be able to catch it fast. I believe!! No matter how bad it was, i still kinda enjoyed it. I think especially because of the new learning environment and the new stuffs i am learning. Ultimately, the one that made the difference will be the people i am studying with, my classmates. HA. We are having a class outing this friday and it definitely will be fun man. Going cycling and then going to picnic. So family right..... HA. And this was when i get to know that alot of my classmates were brothers in Christ as well. YAY!! HA. And guess what!! Peiqing's friend is in my class!! HA. The world is just so small man. Getting to know people who are connected everywhere. LOL.

2008-04-20T22:21:00.002+08:00

Today was a very healthy day for me man. Besides the fact that i had my dinner at 930. Ha. At least i ate my brunch too. LOL. More importantly, my team, East Dee, had a friendly soccer match with EVOLUTION/PIKACHU. Haiz... And we lost 5-1 if i am not wrong. But it isn't that bad after all. EVOLUTION is at the top ofthe table and they played more than PIKACHU. And considering that we only had 11 with no substitute, comparing with 2 whole team of substitutes, this is another factor that led to our defeat. ha. Besides soccer, i also had a jog(like finally) of at least 3.5km. FATS BURNED. HA. Enough about the healthy me. Guess what......... I am starting school tomorrow!! HA. This is going to be so exciting. I am really anticipating how it would be like to seat in my class and learn different things. Ha. I have this new friend named Huifen. She is in class 207. But she is trying to appeal to come into our class because she is more comfortable here. This is due to some miscommunication that she joined our class the other time. Ha. So tomorrow some of us will be following her to help plead with the course manager. HA. yup yup. Hmm.... Alvin shared to me today that it is really hard to adapt to Poly life. Everyday will somehow be like a holiday. Very slack. So i really wanna pray that God will keep me disciplined and adapt fast. Not to continue on with the 'slacky' lifestyle but to be disciplined so that i can accomplish more greater things for Him. Ha. Yup. Lastly, i wanna thank God for Alvin's dad for sending us to Sengkang today and also thank Him for keeping me safe since my back really hurts today. THANK YOU DADDY!!=)

2008-04-20T22:16:00.002+08:00

this is the best version i have found. this guy is a freak. Very nice voice singing a very nice song. C00o0o00oL. HA. He needs no editing to make him sound nicer according to other live vids i have seen. But the one i am showing has some lack time in the sound, so not very clear. ha. But it is still very very nice. Enjoy=)

2008-04-19T21:54:00.002+08:00

I was in TP orientation for the past 3 days. I would not say it was terrific, but at least, I enjoyed abit of it. Ha. I think the best thing about this orientaion is that i got to know my new classmates and was able to spend alot of time building relationship. And to me, thats one of the most important thing you need to do when you are on planet Earth, to build relationships. Not just surface ones, but those where you really know them deep inside and love them. HA. I guess that was the main purpose of the oriesntation as well, to familiarize with the people whom you need to bear with for the next three years. HA. My class is pretty diversed. There is a Korean, a chinese, a Malaysian and two guys who had completed their NS. Though diverse, almost everyone was able to communicate with one another well. And guess what. Ironically, the Chinese and the Korean seems to be in very good terms now. Ha. It is really funny seeing them communicating because both of them are trying pretty hard to understand one another's English. LOL. The two older guys in the class was not very hard to communicate too. Though older, they were pretty enthusiastic when it comes to cheers, which made it fun being with them. HA. But honestly, my class is comparatively passive. Almost everyone is pretty passive. Or maybe they had not shown their true selfs yet. Ha. Hopefully for the next few years i will enjoy my time with them. yeah. Above all, i would like to thank God for placing these people in my life. And ultimately, not forgeting to thank God for placing so many brothers and sisters who are there to befriend, guide, keep watch, and love me. Thanks.

2008-04-15T00:59:00.002+08:00

2008-04-14T00:32:00.002+08:00

'We will rock you' musical was totally spectacular!! I can hardly express the experience i had. My first live musical and i am just addicted to it. HA. But this was really a very good one that all music lovers should not miss. My mind was blown away and my jaws were down to my feet. I LOVED IT!! The sound system, the light effects, acting, outfits, humour and of course, the singing were all awesome. I am once again inspired to sing really well man. And next time i am going to be part of this kinda musicals. HA. If its according to God's plan. LOL. I will rock you!!

2008-04-13T13:06:00.001+08:00

Jeremy Camp..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g7ArqLTNY_c

2008-04-13T01:35:00.003+08:00

Love sacrifices.
Love is patient.
Love keeps no record of wrong doings.
Love touches lives.
Love perseveres.
Love builts up.
Love is gentle.
Love is kind.
Love forgives.
Love gives the best.
Love is faithful.
Love is kind.
Love gives grace and mercy.
Love is beautiful.
Love cannot be fully comprehended.
Love is just.
Love cares.
Love keeps one going.
God is Love.
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Suddenly thought of this as i was reflecting what i learnt today. I was actually thinking of what Pastor Jeff said today about saying 'I love you'. And suddenly came to the topic of what exactly is love. Ha. Well, i guess it can never be fully understood or comprehended. What we all know about love is that it is more than a feeling itself and it requires commitment. I cannot think of what exactly it is. I guess because God is love and we can never fully comprehend who God is as well. One thing i know for sure is that God loves me and had demonstrated what love is by sending His one and only Son to die on the cross for us. Oh man!! Love really is a big thing!! No wonder it is said that if there is no love, everything else is meaningless. AHH!!! Getting headache over it. HA.

2008-04-12T00:35:00.002+08:00

OH ya!! I have got to share about this too. This week caregroup we had two Tampines sec converts. YAY!! Let me share briefly how the story goes. Basically both of them were brought aside when Mandon was being prayed for the Holy Spirit baptism. I shared the gospel to them and they recieved Christ. And furthermore, they recieved the Holy Spirit straight after as well. HA. This is like so cool and amazing. But this is what really happens in the early church. When people recieve Christ in their life, they recieve the Holy Spirit as well. So that they can immediately experience God in the maximum level. Yup Yup. To carry on with the story, they even asked their parents to change their tuition dates to sunday. WOW!! HA!! That's not the end!! One of them asked his parents about being a christian and told them about the june camp. The response that i heard was 'Go ahead, why not!?' OH MY GOSH!!!!!! God is openning the gate of heaven wide open for us to recieve the fruits. Now it is up to us to be faithful in the things God has entrusted us to take care of. Be good stewards.

2008-04-11T23:51:00.002+08:00

Today was not exactly a fruitful day, but to a certain extent, it was.
I spent my whole day with Mandon, a new brother. And i really got a chance to teach him and know him much much more. Knew his friends, knew his family and of course, knew how he leads his own life. It was really cool because he initiated to ask me to ask his mother about coming to church. Well, obviously i did and it appeared that his mother was actually very supportive of him coming. Praise God!! And he has already set aside his savings to come for camp!! MY MY!!! HA. Let me share abit more about him. He is one of the best fruits that i have ever seen. His hunger for the Word, his desire to learn and willingness to make changes had displayed a heart that really seeks after God. As i observed even more, he also possesses leadership qualities. Such as being influencial and his initiative to help. Furthermore, he can play the guitar!! HA. He seems so easy to teach man. Of course, there are other not so nice things that shall not be stated here. HA. Yup. Above all, he is really growing exponentially and is already starbursting. My challenge for him is to be a shepherd by june camp. I believe he has the potential. YAY!! Thank You God for giving us such a new brother. Your kingdom shall continue to be advanced.
Amen

2008-04-11T10:38:00.003+08:00

I am getting more and more motivated to learn to play the guitar well lately. I just saw a video clip of Jeremy Camp, a praise and worship leader, playing and singing. It was totally a jaw dropping video. His voice was terrific, his band was cool and the songs he composed were awesome. I really wanna be like him man. The video is not a praise and worship session, it is rather like a performance. But i believe the audience experienced God as well. As he sings, during the transition of songs, he would share insights and stories, openning the hearts of those on their seats. That is how i want to aim towards to man. Playing the guitar, singing in a melodious voice and opeening the hearts of people towards God. Ha. Lead worshipper!! Here i come!!

2008-04-10T02:05:00.003+08:00

WOW!! I really enjoyed my night at Dempsey Hill tonight. It was really a totally different experience. People there were of a different class. Rich people. Expensive cars all over. Ha. And there we are taking bus and walking in. Worst still, we got kinda lost. Well, at least in the end we found the places that we wanted to go. Best of the whole trip was..... GOOD FOOD!!! HA. Though the amount spent was hurtful, I believe it was all worth it. Imagine $20 worth of fresh and sweet nougats laid on the table. Soft, sweet, sticky, chewy nougats. MAN!! The experience was totally awesome and splendid. All sweet lovers will sure love it. Next stop was to PS Cafe. It is well known for its desserts according to Dennis. When we stepped into the cafe, the 'rich people aura' overwhelmed me. Ha. We got ourselves a comfortable sofa seat and there began our saliva dripping cakes. HA. Above all the food that i had, the thing that i enjoyed the most was the tomyam like sauce. MAN!! Thats the best sauce i have tasted in my life!! NO other sauce comes cose to that man!! I even asked for another serving of it even after finishing the fries. The waiter gave me the 'what the..' look. Ha.

2008-04-10T01:14:00.002+08:00

It really seems like i am a pretty lost child waiting for my Father's guidance. Lost in what i want to do, lost in who He wants me to be, basically lost in my own world. All along I have been wondering what exactly is the thing that I am called to do. What is the specific calling just for me? I asked myself for the past few years, and have yet found an answer. There are a lot of things I want to do, numerous goals I would like to accomplish, BUT, WHAT??? I am a mediocre all my life. Being moderate at everything, nothing that I could say i am really good at. Take for example sports, studies, music, any of these I am really good at? I guess i really got to start an intense mind cracking session to think and pray through about it. Being above average at all things is not a good thing a all. I can run, I can sing, I can do many things, BUT JUST WHAT IS THE ONE THING!!!! Now I really start to understand what Dr Wilson prayed for me 2 years back. He said 'Be focus!! You look like a horse running all around. Allow Jesus to ride on your back and lead you.' OH MAN!! These words are coming to live. Honestly, I really want to see a breakthrough this time round. I never had it, but I really want it. God has been dropping questions in my mind for the past few months, 'Is this all that you can do? Are you really satisfied at how you are living right now?' These questions are like darts piercing through my heart every time. And I believe God is waiting for the moment when I would say 'I can't stand this anymore!! I need a breakthrough!! I need to be who i really am to my very best!! The life that i am leading now really irritates me to the core!! I believe I can achieve more than what I am doing now!! Come on!!' Well, God must be very patient with me man. So now, let me pray this prayer. 'Father, I know I have not been the best that I can be, I have not been as obedient as i am called, i have not been the person who you have called me to be. So Father, today I come humbly before you, asking of your grace and mercy to be upon me. Forgive me Father. From today onwards, guide me, lead me, and slowly reveal to me the person you created me to be. I know I do not have the strength to do this on my own. At least one thing I know, You are with me and that’s all I need. Strengthen me each day so that I can overcome all obstacles in my life, achieving the goals that You have set out for me to do. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.' I call Him Father, so there is no way He is not going to guide me. For that i know He loves me. And this love will keep me going on. 2 things to take note: -Focus -Discipline
CLAEST WINSTAR TEY KAI HUAI!! JIAYOU!!

2008-04-08T23:11:00.003+08:00

Sins are like beasts,
something not to be pleased.

The more you feed,
the more it greeds.

The more it is fed,
the stronger it will get.

Slowly it will overcome you,
and by then it is hard to 'shoo'.

So stop feeding it,
don't give it food to eat.

Weaker and weaker it will be,
and only death awaits it you shall see.

Choose to overcome,
and not be overcomed.

For we are called to be victors,
victory over sins shall be ours.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

2008-02-08T22:47:00.001+08:00

WOW!! Its new year again!! Time passes just like a blink of an eye. I can still remember exactly what i did last CNY. Though partly is because every year's CNY is a duplicate of another. The exact time we wake up, the exact routine of places we visit, the exact faces that we see and the exact questions and comments we hear. Such as 'You very handsome leh'. Come on, i know it already, don't have to say it every year. HAHAHAHAHAHAH. LOL.
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1st day:
First is to my Mum's side grandparents. Where i will recieve a great sum of money from my grandpa.
Then to my Dad's side granddparents. Where i will hear my Dad say, 'This prawn ball is handmade by AhMa and its the best, nobody can do such nice prawn balls like she can.' MAN!! I literally hear this sentence every year, maybe even when i was in my mother's womb.
After which we will head back home.
2nd day:
Head to my Xiao Gu's house and enjoy the delicious meal she had prepared. This is not so a sequence to dread about cause every year she will surprise us with something special. I remember there was once she prepared 'Buddha Jump Over The Wall'. Ha.
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Well, those are the routines of my CNY, whats yours? LOL.
But at least, there are some interestings things as well. This year, like finally, i got to see my mum after so many years. We were seperated because of certain reasons and now she is back at my grandparents house. My family trio, my dad bro and i, decided to continue the seperation though she is back. Yup. Another addition to my knowledge is that i have an older step-brother. Which is the son of my mother's first husband. COOL!!! I never knew about all these man. LOL.
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Besides these, something out of the norm was that i went to watch CJ7. A lousy movie which all who wishes to safe money should not watch in the cinema. LOL. Though pretty funny, its utterly stupid and a waste of time. The only people who should watch are those that loves to waste time and money. Ha. And you know whats the best part? We went off straight after. LOL. Imagine going all the way to SHAW HOUSE and catch a movie and go home. Dot dot dots..... Wasted 20 dollars because of the movie. Haiz. But at least it is paid for the price of fellowship.
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Talking about money, its my habit to open my red packets only after day 3. Ha. How much did you collect? I heard Prana had 6 red packets which amounted to 500 plus. (Mouth wide open) LOL.

STUDY METHODS THAT YOU SHOULD NOT FOLLOW!!!

2008-02-08T22:47:00.000+08:00

I really can't stop praising God for my results seriously. Every single time i think of it i will just start smiling to God. Haha. By the way Daryl, you wanna know how i studied? Let me share with you.
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ENG-Just keep writing compositions and let the teacher mark. Allow the teacher to evaluate and get some improvement points.
EMATH-Look at the question then look at the answer without even writing anything. I studied math, not practice.
HISTORY-Studied 2 chapters. Spot 4 questions. Memorize 4 essay.(2 questions i spot came out)
SS-Similar to HISTORY, but the chapter i spotted and memorized never come out.
POA-Similar to EMATH.
CHINESE-Didnt even touch at all.
BIO/CHEM-Look at question and answer.
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Obviously this is the laziest way to study and you should never follow. LOL. By looking at the way i study, it definitely have shown that my results must be by God's grace, SERIOUSLY!!!!
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OK. Enough bout the amazing results i talked about so many times. Even my CG members got really sick of me everytime i remember of it. Ha.

Results and Posting

2008-01-28T23:19:00.000+08:00

First of all, i would really want to thank God for my results.
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English B3
Combine Humanities (his/ss) A2
Emath B3
Combine Science (bio/chem) A2
POA B3
Chinese C5
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Honestly speaking, i should not have deserved such results. It was really either God did a swap in papers or He purposely made me abit smarter. Ha. Reason being that at the study period, i was not even really mugging like crazy.(At least not like my other classmates) Besides, what was troubling me at that time was not study stress, but some other things. Furthermore, taking into consideration that school was like my second hotel(sleep when i enter class till school ends), it was seemingly impossible for me to catch up the few years of work. However, miraculously, i passed my chinese and the rest of the subjects did farely well. Praise God man. Though i expected better results, i still think that this result is already amazing. So one lesson that i really need to learn is that i am created smarter(ha) and if i overcome my laziness, i could do far better grades. Of course, similarly, if i am able to be more disciplined in life, i could have done far greater things for God too. Thus, i really wanna thank God for His grace, for such results. I am still very amazed by it even till now.(By the way, i am not promoting people not to study, please study hard and do even better.)
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Today was the last day of registration for our courses, which is extremely fast. We only had three days to decide after getting our results!! Thankfully, i made my choices.
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1st choice-Financial business and informatics(FBI)
2nd choice-Aviation management and services(AMS)
(forgot all the rest)
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I didnt really bother bout the rest cause i will sure go in FBI. Ha.
By the way, its really been a hard time for me to choose this course. I have literally went through ups and downs untill i eventually settled on it. In the beginning, my first idea was hospitality and tourism management(HTM), which was a course i was kinda oblivious about. I prayed continually and thanks be to God, he openned new doors for me at the last minute. And together came with it my more troubles, which course to choose. Ha. It was really very mind cracking for me for the past few days. The two courses that had never crossed my mind came jumping in, creating a chaos in my mind, FBI and AMS. Alvin and Huijuan were the ones responsible for all the 'psychoing', creating a mess in my thoughts. I was really lost and indecisive. However, thanks to Dennis Loh, after the patient talks with me and helping me to realize what was the issue behind these troubles, i was able to make a decision. 'Phew'. (Thanks Dennis for being ever so patient with me) By the way, what i meant bout 'literally went through ups and downs' is this:
-I went Tp at 9 to listen to what the lecturers from AMS and FBI got to say bout the course.
-Decided on FBI and sent in my choices in TP at 1030.
-Went back home and did further research on FBI.
-Started to regret my choice, should have put AMS as my first choice.
-Frantically went back Tp again at 230, hoping that i could change.
-Found out can change but still hesitant.
-Talked more thoroughly with the lecturers.
-In the end still decided on FBI.
So......am i dumb or dumber? Ha.
The reason why it was so hard for me is because i dont know where my interest is. But really thank God i was able to make a decision in the end. And also wanna thank God for placing prople in my life to reveal things to me. Such as Alvin who introduced FBI to me and Huijuan who helped to further confirm my interest in a way. Ha.
Living a life worth dying for, living a life making the right choices.

Look, So I Can Slap You

2007-12-23T12:54:00.000+08:00

Updated....

2007-09-14T20:01:00.000+08:00

WOW!!! It has been a long time since i posted yeah, ha. Just suddenly decided to post and update it since there are lots of things happening recently.
First of all, RC is GONE!!!! 'Sobs'. This is like so untimely. Right in the middle of all the exams. So yup, which means there is less one option place for me to study. Ha. But of course, this is not the main concern. CAREGROUP!!!! MEET UPS!!! GATHERINGS!!! Gosh, i am going to miss those times man. Well, i believe God has an interesting way of doing things. Now the only thing is to trust Him in whatever it is. Ha.
Secondly, due to the lack of place to stay, Ben has to shift in with me. Ha. This is so interesting. Having someone to live together with for a few months is definitely something exciting. Ha. Going to school together, coming home and bla bla bla. He is going to be like my real brother man. Oh!! And within this period when he is staying over, i will make sure he learn how lessons on stewardship. Hehehehe..... (Yiqin can treat me if you want, ha.)
Last but not least, .....'O' level COMING SOON!!!!!!! Prelims are NOW!!!!! MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG!!!!! Man, its tiring. Study study study, mug mug mug, ARGH!! Ha, but i tink its fun though. Hehe. Don't know why, but i think i am starting to like studying. Ha. At least it is something fruitful. Oh ya, whoever can, PLEASE pray for me for my exams. To be more specific, my self-control and my aim is to get 10 points for L1R4. Yup. (So now whoever that read this has an obligation to help me pray, cause when a brother request, his siblings must help cause its the right thing to do. Hehehehe. So.....thanks.)
In conclusion.............................
i have got nothing to say anymore.
Bye....!!

Fun...

2007-07-26T23:05:00.000+08:00

It is God's work.....

2007-07-25T19:54:00.000+08:00

The king was seated in a garden, and one of his counselors was speaking of the wonderful works of God.

"Show me a sign," said the king, "and I will believe."

"Here are four acorns," said the counselor, "will you, Majesty, plant them in the ground, and then stoop down for a moment and look into this clear pool of water?"

The king did so, "Now," said the other, "look up."

The king looked up and saw four oak-trees where he had planted the acorns. "Wonderful!" he exclaimed, "this is indeed the work of God."

"How long were you looking into the water?" asked the counselor.

"Only a second," said the king. "Eighty years have passed as a second," said the other. The king looked at his garments; they were threadbare. He looked at his reflection in the water; he had become an old man. "There is no miracle here, then," he said angrily.

"Yes," said the other, "it is God's work, whether he did it in one second or in eighty years."

Simple Post....

2007-07-22T04:15:00.000+08:00

Today was I.F service part 1. I think it was totally fantastic. All the song presentations were awesome. Everyone sang well and played well. As for me, i could really say i tried my best to memorise the lyrics and practice to the best. But sad to say, i still forget the lyrics and i think i did't sing very well. But i am sure that as long as this is for God, it is well done. Ha. Not only that, i think Pastor Jeff's sermon is very well done. I believe he did loads of preparation to make sure the the message was clearly brought over and the jokes were good enough to spice up the atmosphere. Ha. Basically, everyone did their best for the part they play to make this service. (Claps...)
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Celebrated Qian's and Joy's birthday today. Qian's one was just a short and simple happy birthday song with a "i love you Qianjing' song. Ha. As for Joy's, we went to some cafe to enjoy some delicious cakes. Ha. Of course, together with affirmation and dreams for her. Got to know more of Joy today too.
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ON the way home, i lost my wallet (AGAIN!!!!) in bus 28. Sianz. Hope it will be back (AGAIN!!!).
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Talked to Shane on the phone while waiting for my dad to be back to open the door. Enjoyed listening to him so much because of the openness he had when he shares with me.
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Post is very sloppy. Very tired, but just felt like blogging a little. Ha. Got to go sleep............

Jokes...

2007-07-12T23:08:00.000+08:00

-A man went to a doctor and said, 'I have been having frequent de javu lately.'
The doctor replied, 'I thought i saw you yesterday?'
-Another man brought his child to see a doctor and said, 'My child just swallowed a roll of film.
Doctor replied, 'Let's wait and see what develops.'
-Another man went to a doctor saying 'I feel like a dog.'
Doctor's response, 'Since when have this startd?'
Patient replied, 'Since i was a puppy.'
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Time to laugh if you have not. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA..........!!!!!!!!

Just Blogging.....

2007-07-12T21:49:00.000+08:00

This school term is my last school term in my secondary school, excluding the prelims and study break. Which also means that it is my toughest term. Ha. Teachers are more strict and demanding, homeworks are piling up like, 'student stress' is more and more tense, self-discipline and diligence are more required than ever. However, thanks to all these, i guess i am finally going to wake up from my sleep. Ha. Have not been really disciplined to study for the past decade of my life. Studying to me is like a word in my dictionary that is often untouched. Ha. Seems like the situation that i am in now had turned the table around. I guess i would dig the word out even if it was not in my dictionary. LOL. (if you get it, good. if you don't, too bad. but it ain't a joke either.) So now, i have got to change and do what is best. Not only for my sake, but God's too. For His glory.
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This first phase of CG08 is a very exciting one. Experience lots of things as well. Especially as a pioneering leader, have lots of new insights and learnings about leadership. Not only that, but also having new experiences with God during this pioneering. The pruning process though painful, it all turned out beautiful in the end. My relationship with God too have been growing and being nurtured well, loving God more and more each day. (How well your relationship is with God is well defined by how much you love Him.)
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Lastly, want to take some time to share about this new brother we have. His name is Glen. From St Hilda's secondary. YAY!!!!. Our first fruit. Ha. About hiim, he is totally a super super super newb. That is what Aloysius calls him. Basically, keeping it short, he is already connected to everyone in the caregroup in the first day. Requested for the Holy Spirit baptism on his own will and was so excited about it. Then, funnily, he emailed Dennis askng for membership the next day. LOL. Was not able to talk to him on the first day, so went to look for this well known 'super newb' at his house. Expecting nothing less, he asked for the Holy Spirit baptism again after not having Him the first time and printd contact list forms for us in his own initiative. Brendon even have to stop him from printng 50!!!! LOL. Last but not least, he is more than willing to join in this CG08!!! YAY!!!
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Thank you....
God-for loving me though i don't deserve it most
Dennis-for being my shepherd
Yiqin-for being my 'bestest' friend and 'irritator'
Aloy-for supporting so well in the group
Bren-for calling your contacts so faithfully
Prana-for making your way down to get contacts though it was 30 mins
Alfon-for willingness to lead though it was tough
Glen-for being such a testimony to many
You-for spending some time reading this
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Yup, thats all for this post. Valiastos.

God is with you....

2007-07-12T21:46:00.000+08:00

God is always there with you!!!

It is really tough and tiring. Tough in pushing myself down to St Hilda’s to get contacts even when my team is unable to come, tough in approaching big groups, tough in approaching gangsters, tough in sustaining my spirit of enthusiasm and tough in putting up my courage. Tiring most of the times when it is like after a whole day of school and going down to get contacts and shepherding and calling up of contacts when I reach home and starting my revision and completing my mountain like homework and finally sleeping at 2 plus 3( and and and……). Well, this is my normal routine nowadays, since I decided to commit to CG08.

However, through all these, God spoke to me and what seems like refreshing water was poured unto my burned out spirit.

The other day when I was getting contacts ‘alone’, I had a sudden thought. “Is ‘alone’ the word to use?” Well, the answer was just shot back directly into my face. “NO!!!” Of course, all these I am doing, I am not doing alone. I am doing all these with the one who instructed me to do, God. Immediately, I started talking to God and did it with God. Telling Him how tired I was and sharing every thought I have with Him. Such as the people walking by, those that rejected me and whine to Him when there was no one in sight for a long time. I would say it was my best experience and best of spirit compared to the past few days that I went down.

All in all, the message is this. We are all doing this pioneering with the one who instructed us to do, not alone. Though sometimes we may be seen alone, but in our hearts we are not alone. Besides, doing God’s work without God’s power guiding us is like a tortoise trying to climb a pole. When you get this and really get it right, everything you do will seem so different. Your energy never seems to run out and your excitement never drops. For in Phil 4:13 says ‘I can do everything through him who gives me strength.’

Jia You to all pioneering teams. God is with you.

School Reopening!!!...

2007-06-24T22:25:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL REOPENING TOMMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well............there is the POSITIVE....and the NEGATIVE side to it..
Obviously, the negative side is the thought of having to wake up early in the morning for school and STUDY. Oh man, i hate the feeling of being restricted in a class for 8 hours in that uncomfortable uniform sitting down listening to the boring lesson. 'haiz'. Well, i dun have a choice i guess. But of course, to see it in a better light, i got to study because i have to get an education so that i can benefit more to God's kingdom.
Positive side is that it is TIME FOR HARVEST!!!!!! Wow!!! I am just so excited!!! Getting contacts, calling people up, sowing, meetings, discpling and bla bla bla. Ha. This season will definitely be an fruitful one.
Btw, for those who like thrillers, watch 'Heroes', you will fall in love with it. I just finished watching the 1st season. Basically the whole story is about people with special powers realizing their powers and coming together to accomplish a mission. Which make everyone of them a hero. This movie will defintely thrill you especially when you see the story, from different parts, forming together and making it a whole picture. Be prepared to drop your jaw if you watch. Besides, there biblical principles in the show as well.
living a life worth dying for..living a life fulfilling my mission..

Blogging...

2007-06-15T10:11:00.000+08:00

Camp was totally awesome!!! Guess it was one of the bst camp i have ever been too. One of the reason is because i ecpected much for this camp, my heart was ready when i went and God is able to speak to me every moment during the camp. Enjoyed every teaching session and altar call, basically the whole camp, lol. Though the night games was cancelled, i believe its much more worth it for the Spirit's move.
During this camp, there was one main thing God reminded me about, and i believe is going to change my entire walk with him and the way i live my life.
I was reminded that it was not about me, but God. It is not how much i am pleased, it is about how much God is pleased. I thought i knew it long ago, but its untill now that i really get what it means. EVERYTHING!!! Such as the things we do, the things we think and the way we feel. Well, there is going to be lots of changes in my life i believe. God is pruning me in lots of things, and it is really really REALLY painful. But i want to trust that beauty lies beneath all these pain and suffering i am going through. Besides, God will never put me in a situation beyond what i can bear.
OK. Next, let me talk about CG08!! HA. I am going to pioneer St Hilda's!! Wow, it is totally so exciting. Together with Prana Aloy and Brendon, we are going to conquer and win the the school. My target is to win the school by end of this quarter so that we can pioneer other new grounds as well. By the way, i can never let go of Junyuan. So, as i am pioneering St Hilda's, i will be pioneering Junyuan myself as well. It is going to be very tough for the team to follow my pacing to pioneer St Hilda's and tough fo me to pioneer Junyuan on the same time. But God is bigger than all these challenges and i am going to win the schools over with the partnership of the Holy Spirit.
I am going to be a HISTORY MAKER!!! I am going to be a WORLD CHANGER!!! I am going to be WHO GOD WANTS ME TO BE!!!

just a sudden thought..

2007-06-06T22:14:00.000+08:00

i rmb a few months ago..i prayed this prayer..'God give me more testings'..well..i got it..and sure enough..as always..a test is a test..it is never easy..

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2007-06-06T21:46:00.000+08:00

2 nitez ago..had the worst nite of my life..tossed and turn ard the bed and could't slp..had alot in my mind..tinking bout lots of things in my life and something..i could really feel no peace at all..it was like a total hopeless state..and seriously..i tink i almost went crazy..my mind was really not in a very good state at that time..felt like just giving up..and at 3am..finally fell asleep..
had a shepherding session with dennis yesterday..and finally..i was able to share my every thought and emotion in my heart..i was totally relieved after that sharing session..i finally felt wat was peace like..thou still in the midst of the trouble..i learnt my mistakes..and learnt a very very very painful lesson in my spiitual life..thou this is not the worst it can get..i really hope this will be the worst for me..dun wanna experience those tormenting nitez anymore..dun wanna have those days without God..seriously speaking..i can say full well now that one day in the God's presence is better than anywhere else..
now that the whole thing is kinda settled..i really pray that things will get alrite soon and very soon..know that there are consequences to face..like it goes..'every decision ahs a consequence'..feel like running away..but know that i just cant..it will soon catch up..so......FACE IT!!!..
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God i thank you for your ever forgiving heart in my life..every time i fail..u are still there to forgive..and thank you for your ever faithful presence..always when i need you..you are there..i pray that from now on you will guide me and help me in this tough journey..for i know that with you i can do all things....help me to TRUST in you and entrust my life in your hands..amen..

DuN SpReAd Or talK BoUt ThiS iF YoU ReaD.........

2007-06-02T23:42:00.000+08:00

seriously speaking..my spiritual life is no very well rite now..lots of thoughts in my mind..but dont know how to arrange them..simply just say 'beginning of backsliding'..symptoms are showing..and this is kinda the first time its so serious..never had such a bad time in my spiritual walk before..emotions are always at the low..everything seems crashing down..and the truth is..i know wat is wrong with me..but i just dun wanna overcome it..had a few times after having some thots and such..it seems like i am regaining health..but soon after..it turns back again..well..just pray for me yeah?..ha..btw..this will be the first time ppl will see the other side of me..ha..shh...........

Making a Difference

2007-05-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

We all have a desire to make a difference, don't we? We want to
make our mark on the world, to leave it a better place than it was
when we came. It's a desire that's as good as hardwired into our
DNA, one of the six human needs that speaker/writer/motivator Tony
Robbins says we all share. We not only want to change to world, we
feel an innate need to do so.

But in a word as fraught with turmoil as this one, how do we go
about it? Making any kind of change at all, at first thought, seems
almost impossible. And to compound the difficulty, we feel so
limited, reminded almost daily that it takes money and power and
armies and new laws designed to benefit the downtrodden if we are
to change the world; resources that few of us have at our disposal.

In truth, however, making a difference in our world is not so much
about resources as it is about resourcefulness. It is not as
dependent upon what we have at our disposal as it is upon what we
are willing to do with what we have. Changing the world doesn't
take as much money and power and new laws as we have been fooled
into believing. It's more like eating the proverbial elephant --
best done one bite, or one small, seemingly insignificant, change
at a time. And each and every one of us is capable of making that
one change.

All we need do is look around us, focus on what we can do and then
mimick Edward Everett Hale in declaring to the world, "I am only
one, but I am one. I cannot do everything, but I can do something.
And I will not let what I cannot do interfere with what I can do."

We have to be like Johnny, the supermarket bag boy, who wanted so
badly to make a difference that he refused to let his limitations
stop him. If you are not familiar with Johnny's story of how he
made an incredible impact on his world by doing what he could, I am
delighted to provide an introduction. It is a beautiful story of
hope and purpose and one worthy of being told again and again.

Recently my friends at Simple Truths released a movie centered on
Johnny's story. I watched it this morning and knew at once I wanted
to make a difference by sending it on to you. I think it will touch
your heart and move your spirit just as it had done mine. And
hopefully, it will inspire us all to look for new ways we can use
the resources we have at hand to make a difference in the lives of
others. That is, after all, what we all yearn to do. It is what we
feel a need to do.

Here's the link to the movie:

http://www.stservicemovie.com/

Digimon!!!!

2007-05-15T21:35:00.000+08:00

ha..had been watching this childhood anime for the past few days..(oops..which means i slacked..)
digimon have kinda been my favourite anime since i was young..not to compare with the new ones like naruto and bleach of course..i rmb since pri 2 or so..i will make sure i wake up every sunday morning at 9am just to make sure i dun miss the lastest episode of the anime..ha..and this continues on and on untill the series is over..and when its over..i would feel so empty inside as there is no more next episode for me to put my expectations on..ha..so whenever the next series appears on TV..it seems like i have a hope oe something..lol..kinda weird..but its those kinda feeling that u have when u are young..ha..
well..the reason that i love the show so much is becos of the adventurous feeling..and wat makes me continue watching is becos there will be always something to expect the next episode..such as wat would the digimon evelove to next and wat will happen next..ha..which i believe is the attraction to most shows as well..besidesthose stated..another factor that led to my love for digimon is the characters in it..there are always life principles to learn from them..such as perseverance.unity.treasuring of relationships and etc..
i strongly believe that my character had been influenced by this show..since its like my childhood show..so its principles must have influenced me in a way or another..ha..(thats where i learn to treasure friends:))..and of course..i still dig principles in the show to learn as well now..yeah..
living a life worth dying for..living a life with the attitude to learn..

Story By Max Lucado..

2007-05-12T23:16:00.000+08:00

When my daughters were single-digit ages???two, five, and seven???I wowed them with a miracle. I told them the story of Moses and the manna and invited them to follow me on a wilderness trek through the house.

“Who knows,” I suggested, “manna may fall from the sky again.”

We dressed in sheets and sandals and did our best Bedouin hike through the bedrooms. The girls, on my instruction, complained to me, Moses, of hunger and demanded I take them back to Egypt, or at least to the kitchen. When we entered the den, I urged them to play up their parts: groan, moan, and beg for food.

“Look up,” I urged. “Manna might fall any minute.”

Two-year-old Sara obliged with no questions, but Jenna and Andrea had their doubts. How can manna fall from a ceiling?

Just like the Hebrews. “How can God feed us in the wilderness?”

Just like you? You look at tomorrow’s demands, next week’s bills, next month’s silent calendar. Your future looks as barren as the Sinai Desert. “How can I face my future?” God tells you what I told my daughters: “Look up.”

When my daughters did, manna fell! Well, not manna, but vanilla wafers dropped from the ceiling and landed on the carpet. Sara squealed with delight and started munching. Jenna and Andrea were old enough to request an explanation.

My answer was simple. I knew the itinerary. I knew we would enter this room. Vanilla wafers fit safely on the topside of the ceiling-fan blades. I had placed them there in advance. When they groaned and moaned, I turned on the switch.

God’s answer to the Hebrews was similar. Did he know their itinerary? Did he know they would grow hungry? Yes and yes. And at the right time, he tilted the manna basket toward earth.

And what about you? God know what you need and where you’ll be. Any chance he has some vanilla wafers on tomorrow’s ceiling fans? Trust him. “Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes” (Matthew 6:33-34).

Friends......

2007-05-10T11:04:00.000+08:00

to all my beloved friends..this is for u..ha..

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Race Of Life....

2007-04-13T10:48:00.000+08:00

i went for a jog on tues at the bedok resovoir..it was really tough cos the last time i ran long distance was ard 1 year ago..ha..but not that disappointing after all since i am still able to complete that big pool within 20 mins..BUT..ended up in a bad muscle ache the next day thou..well..and thru that jog..i understand so much more about this race that i am running.......
-i fist made a dicision to run this race..so when i start..i cannot stop..NO turning back..
-the first few metres of the race always seems so easy..could just go at a constant speed without putting much effort..
-then temptations start to creep in when u pass thru that easy part..calling u to give up and just turn back..the whole big round just seems to be never ending..so..this thought to stop and walk will always pop out in ur brain..
-obstacles always appear..and i have got to move a side and break thru it..if not i will just knock onto it and fall like a dumb fool..
-but i always cling on to the ultimate goal to see the ending point where all the applauses will start to ring in my ears..and my beloved with his wide open arms waiting for me..
-the sun was setting and its growing darker each minute..but the lamp lights was guiding my every step..and preventing me from falling and going the wrong track..
-when i see the ending point approaching..i sprint as fast as i could..
-and so..i finished the race..and finally a wonderful rest..
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it is exactly the same to our spiritual race..we chose to start this walk with God..and at first..all seems to be easy and serving was not a problem..but soon..after quite some time..temptations start to creep in..obstacles start to appear..and we always feel like giving up..its so tough to just keep carrying on and break those barriers in front of us..but we just got to cling on to the hope of seeing Jesus at the end of the race..waiting for us..and we will be determined and charged up to just keep going on..and the Word of God will be the lamp to our feet..guiding us all the way..helping us to keep track on this life purpose..not to stray off and get lost..and when u see the end of the race..run as fast as u could..Jesus will be just rite there welcoming u back to Him..and giving u eternal rest......
lets run this race and never give up..keep on running..keep on going..keep on keeping on....
living a life worth dying for..living a life finishing this race gloriously

Personality Type

2007-04-13T10:44:00.000+08:00

You Are An INFP

The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

What's Your Personality Type?

haha..so interesting..i am actually always very confused about my personlity..everything seems to fit..lol..so when i do this kinda test..it always takes a long long time..ha

CL Retreat

2007-03-25T06:55:00.000+08:00

wow!!..had lots of fun in the CL retreat..!!!..especially during the district CL came together to play captain's ball and volley ball..ha..enjoyable and tiring i would say..and the best part that i liked the most is the parts when i fell and ski on the slippery floor..ha..cos it just rained not long before we went over to play..so i was like doing some accidental 'stunts' when i fell and tried to shoot the ball into the goal..ha..interesting..besides enjoying ourselves..there were 2 who got injured on the right eye..ha..api and qin..this is so funny..ha..
hmm..actually throughout this whole time of playing..i realized more bout myself..i really enjoy outdoor activities and i am able to open up more when it comes to this kinda things..and learning that i really give my 100% when it comes to play sports and i will really whack..which most of the time turns out to be rough..ha..(apologize to those that i might have hurt)..BUT..after a break or something..i will tend to slack more and not participate that much..maybe cos i am more tired..but after awhile..when i have rested enough..i will go into the 'hyper' mode again..ha..
Sooooooo.........thru this basic realization bout myself..i aso learn a few thigs that i can apply to my life..my spiritual life as well..:
-Participate 100% and give my best for the Kingdom..
-Rest regularly..have consistent personal retreats with God..
-And get ready to do even much greater things after the rest..
yup..so this is it..btw..if any of u are wondering why i am blogging at this hour after a long day without slping..come ask and i will tell u..ha..lol
living a life worth dying for..living a life with rest after giving ur best..

Father's Love Letter

2007-03-20T23:40:00.000+08:00

My Child…
You may not know me, but I know everything about you…Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up …Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways …Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered…Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image …Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your being …Acts 17:28
For you are my offspring …Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived …Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation …Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book…Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live …Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made …Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb …Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born …Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me …John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love…1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you …1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child and I am your Father …1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could …Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father …Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand…James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs …Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope …Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love …Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore ...Psalms 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing …Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you …Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession …Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul …Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things …Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me …Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart …Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires …Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine …Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager …2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles …2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you …Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart …Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes …Revelation 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth …Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus …John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed …John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being …Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you…Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins …2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled …2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you…1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love …Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me …1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again …Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen …Luke 15:7
I have always been Father, and will always be Father …Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is…Will you be my child? …John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you …Luke 15:11-32

Just Blogging.......

2007-03-19T15:51:00.000+08:00

ha..before anything..let me share a testimony..
i was about to go airport to complete me holiday assignments after the whole day..which was like ard 1140..i was very afraid that i missed the last bus..but praise God..i caught the last bus to airport..ha..but thats not the end of the testimony..ha
when i was in the bus..i slept in the bus..at the very corner..the next moment when i wake up..i realize the whole bus light was OFF!!!...i was like shocked!!!..went over to the bus driver which was on his way back to the depot..he said he tot there was no one left..so he decided to just drive back to the station..ha..i was like HUH!!!..then how bout me going to the airport?!..am i suppose to take the taxi?..together with the midnight charge?..oh gosh..haha..so here comes the best part..he said he will bring to the airport..yay!!!!..but after a while..he changed his mind..he was too lazy to drive all the way to the airport..ha..sooooo..he gave me cash to take taxi over..ha..he gave me $13..well..guess wat..in the end i earned $5..haha..wat a joke..Prasie God!!..

next..wanna share bout wat i learn..or should say reminded of recently..it has actually been in my mind for a long long time..but still have not got it yet..its this thing called VISION..vision is a very crucial thing that every christian..or even everyone should have..without a vision..u will just be working aimlessly..u will just be doing things everywhere but have no goal..no target..u dun know the full picture of wat u want..
the other day when i was building sand castles..i realized this impt fact..cos at first..my team had nothing in mind..there was not a clear picture of wat our finishing would be like..therefore..we just anyhow bulid..just build anything that just came into our mind..which made me realize that at the start..there should actually be a goal in mind..so in the end..we ended up having a stupid sand castle..ha

so after that accident..it was clear that we should have a clear vision in mind..a God given vision..in life and in our grp..we got to have a vision..work towards it..everything that u do is a step closer to vision..everything u talk about is the vision..wat our heartbeat is all about is this vision..WE MUST HAVE A VISION!!!!..

living a life worth dying for..living a life fulfilling ur vision..

Are You A Monkey With Your Hand Stuck In The Coconut?

2007-03-18T23:20:00.000+08:00

It is a true story of how tribesmen caught monkeys in Africa. What they would do would be to take a coconut and make a hole that is just big enough for a monkey’s hand to go into. However, once the hand is closed, it will not be able to come out. They would tehn tie this coconut to a tree. Next, they would place a handful of peanuts (not the NKF one…the real one) into the coconut and leave a trail of it along the ground all the way to the nearby forest. They would then sit and wait patiently.Sure enough, a monkey would soon appear and start picking up the peanuts one by one. Upon reaching the coconut, he would plunge his hand into the large fruit and grab as many peanuts as he can. The next thing he knows, his hand is trapped in the coconut. With his fist full of nuts, he cannot take his hand out.
Once knowing that it has been trapped, the monkey will then scream and shout and alert all the tribesmen who will then come along and capture the monkey! This poor monkey would then lose its freedom forever.
Now, at any point in time, could the monkey have ACTUALLY escaped? Of couse he could. All he had to do was to LET THE PEANUTS GO. But you know what? The nature of the monkey is such that it would NEVER LET GO of its peanuts. Why? Because it is so afraid of losing it. As a result, the monkey loses more than just his peanuts…he loses HIS FREEDOM!
So in the same way..sometimes in life there are things that God wans us to let go for our own good..to free us..to give us something better..but we just always want to hold on to wat we have..afraid of wat is ahead..but the truth is..God knows best..and by letting go..God is able to bless u even more..u will be free..
living a life worth dying for..living a life letting go and letting God..

Story Time...

2007-03-15T12:23:00.000+08:00

There was a professor of philosophy at USC who was a deeply committed atheist. His primary goal for one required class was to spend the entire semester attempting to prove that God couldn't exist.
His students were always afraid to argue with him because of his impeccable logic.
For twenty years he had taught this class and no one had ever had the courage to go against him. Sure, some had argued in class at times, but no one had ever *really gone against him* (you will see what I mean later). Noboby would go against him because he had a reputation. At the end of every semester, on the last day he would say to the class of 300 students, "If there is anyone here who still believes in God, stand up !"
In twenty years, nobody ever stood up. They knew what he was going to do next.
He would say, "Because anyone who believes in God is a fool. If God existed, he could stop this piece of chalk from hitting the ground and breaking. Such a simple task to prove he is God, and yet he can't do it."
And every year he would drop the chalk onto the tile floor of the classroom and it would shatter into a hundred pieces. All the students were convinced that God couldn't exist. Certainly a number of Christians had slipped through, but for 20 years they had been too afraid to stand up.
Well, a few years ago there was a freshman who happened to get enrolled in the class. He was a Christian, and had heard the stories about this professor. He had to take the class because it was one of the required classes for his major. And he was afraid. But for three months that semester he prayed that he would have the courage to stand up no matter what the professor said or what the class thought. Nothing they said or did could ever shatter his faith, he hoped. Finally, the day came. The professor said, "If there is anyone here who still believes in God, stand up!" The professor, and the class of 300 people looked at him, shocked, as he stood up at the back of the room.
The professor shouted, "YOU FOOL! If nothing I have said all semester has convinced you that God doesn't exist, then you are a fool! If God existed, he could keep this piece of chalk from breaking when it hit the ground!"
He proceeded to drop the chalk, but as he did it slipped out of his fingers, off his shirt cuff, onto the pleats of his pants, down his leg, and off his shoe. And as it hit the ground it simply rolled away, unbroken. The professor's jaw dropped as he stared at the chalk. He looked up at the young man and then ran out of the lecture hall. The young man who stood up proceeded to walk to the front of the room and shared his faith in Jesus for the next half hour. 300 students stayed and listened as he told of God's love for them and of his power through Jesus.

Blogging!!!

2007-03-15T11:27:00.000+08:00

FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY!!!!..back in action again..ha..its been a very long time since i blog yeah......ha..went thru many things for the past few months..special events such as LC..
first of all..wanna share a testimony of how God delivered me from the hands of my dad..well..actually my dad disapproves me from going to church..and the truth is..he does not even know i am attending church rite now..(if i am not wrong)..ha..and if he were to find out i am going to church for these past few years..i strongly believe my life will be in grave donger..ha..and if u were to ask..HOW DID I GO FOR THE LC?!?!..ha..the truth is..God allowed me to..i told my dad i was going for a sch camp..and he was not aware that it was in malaysia..and so..i past thru the first stage..everything went well smoothly..went to the LC..enjoyed as if everything was alrite..untill the last nite when i was in my room..i recieved a msg from my brother..my first tot when i saw that it was from my bro..i alrdy suspected that something must have happened..i read the msg and it goes like this.."where are u?..the teacher call pa..say u never go to sch?..wat u doing?"..i was like OMG OMG OMG..i was panicking like crazy..cos i tot the plan was perfect..i even got the cooperation of my form teacher..thou i was panicking..i still trust God in whatever He may be tinking and believe that He will arrange everything to the best for me..so i just continued the LC and focus to my very best..after the LC..wat makes matter worst was that i have to go for drama prac after that..which means i will only return home at 11 plus..ha..but i still chose to go for the prac and trusted in God..
finally..the time came when i stood by the doorstep..praying and still clinging on to God like a little child..afraid but still believing in God's best for me..the last second came when i inserted the key and unlocked the door..the day of jugdement is here..my heart was pumping really really hard..my dad was just sitting at the sofa he normally sits..continued watching his show untill he asked where i went..thank God for the Holy Spirit..i was able to say that i was in a sch camp just that my teacher forgot..oh my..and just that..i was freed.........................
it may not seem that amazing to u..but it is defintely to me..it is so evident..without God..i could not have done that..besides..it will be really crazy if i was found out..cos its a sch day and i lied that it was a sch camp..which the truth was a church event and it was even overseas..ha..its totally amazing man..
living a life worth dying for..living a life putting ur trust in God..

God's speech..

2007-02-13T23:58:00.000+08:00

Look to me in my creation and you will find me.
------Consider the Trees - and you will see my strength
------Consider the Evening sky - and you will see my vastness
------Consider the Flowers - and you will see my beauty.
------Consider the Mountains - and you will see my majesty
------Consider the Grass - and you will see my gentleness.
------Consider the Animals - and you will see my creativity.
------Consider Mankind - and you will see my image.
------Consider the Christian - and see me in their heart.
------Consider your life - and you will see My joy.
------Consider the Person who does not believe in me - and you will see my longing
for relationship

Band Peformance

2007-01-27T22:54:00.000+08:00

today was totally exciting!!!..had the band performance..we really enjoyed ourselves man..
we had to reach early in the morning for morning worship and briefing..had some run throughs after that and everything was ready by 12..every band was somehow prepared mentality too..haha..
yup..so played thru the 2 services..thou we did not win anything..but it was really a great experience for all of us..all of us really enjoyed ourselves and winning was actually never our objective of playing..haha..
i would say that we really did our best and that we have improved much since the first time we played together..improvements such as the timing and the showmanship..well..we really whack all that we can today..haha..thou it was still not really perfect
hmm..my showmanship was much better from the first time..clap clap..haha..but i still tink i sounded funny in that song..lol..nvm..its over..and ppl say it was good..so i tink i should just take it..lol..
the funniest part i tink was when apinun did some funny things with his bass..everyone commented on it..thou i nv see..but i really believe it must be really funny..haha..but i know he just wanna do his best on stage..haha..
hmm..overall is great..i love it..haha..in the end we still got $20 ben and jerry ice-cream voucher..haha..
well..after all..all this that we are doing is not for competition sake..but for the ppl..for the visitors..i really hope those performances really helped to open up their hearts man..but still..THERE ARE LOTS OF PPL CROSS THE LINE OF FAITH TODAY!!!!...YAY!!!...
my group have 4 new brothers...yay!!!...so so so excited for them..haha..
last but not least..to my band members..listen carefully to this...
"I LOVE MY BAND!!!"..haha

When i say..."I am a Christian"

2007-01-26T14:49:00.000+08:00

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!

Copied from Gwen's blog..lol..

Interesting

2007-01-25T00:47:00.002+08:00

It’s not the fault of the student if he/she fails exams when the year has only 365 days.
Typical academic year for a student.
52 Sundays in a year which are rest days.Balance 313 days.
Summer holidays 50 where weather is too hot & difficult to studyBalance 263 days.Not apply to Singapore, but still, Singapore’s weather is very hot throughout the year.
8hrs daily sleep means 122 days.Balance 141 days.
1 hr for daily playing (good for health) means15 days.Balance 126 days.
2hrs daily 1 for food & other delicacies (chew properly & eat) means 30 days.Balance 96 days.
1hr for talking (human is a social animal) means 15 days.Balance 81 days.
Exam days per year at least 35 days.Balance 46 days.
Quarterly, half yearly & festival holidays means 40 days.Balance 6 days.
For sickness at least 3 days.Balance 3 days.
Movies & functions at least 2 days.Balance 1 day.
That 1 day is your birthday.
So, how can a student pass??

BLOGGED!!!

2007-01-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

ok..this is stupid..i just deleted my essay like blog...arh!!!!!
but nvm..i not so stupid to retype the whole thing..so just simply type the main points..
-practicing hard for upcoming performance with band for the past few weeks..
-practice today had lots of mistake..got to learn showmanship and change outfit..
-THANKS KIM!!!..for stressing on my outfit..
-THANKS SHANE HANYUN ZHEWEI APINUN JOLEEN!!!..for being in my team and practicing hard..
-frens who will be free this sat and want to come take a look at my performance pls call me..
-bros pls pray for me that i can go LC..got prob in settling with my dad..
yup..this are the main points that i blogged..haha..
living a life worth dying for..

Another video i like...

2007-01-16T23:03:00.000+08:00

if interested..take a look at this link (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HndzXOolojg )..another guy that has a beautiful voice..singing as Jesus..its an amazing video with drama..he sang till he cried..totally cool..haha..seriously..this is something i would like to do if i have got a chance..haha..enjoy....

TODAY!!!

2007-01-16T21:15:00.000+08:00

hmm..i was pretty affected today..by latecomers and accountability..i really really hate the thought of late coming..it reflects our character..and how bad we plan our time..i am really fine if its reasonable..like overslept..or some other things to attend to..but sometimes even if u have something on..wat is impt is that u inform others about it..not to just come late and treat it as nothing..thats accountability..haiz..thou dissapointed becos i could not continue the plan..i got back quick enough..knowing that it takes time for ppl to change..haha..yup..for those who are reading this..pls note that DUN EVER BE LATE!!!!....haha
another update of the day..started playing maple with my friends..never really liked it thou..haha..but for their sake..i will..lol..maple is a really boring game i can say..or simply..no life..its like hitting some monsters and killing them to gain exp and mesos..the purpose of the game is just to get as high level as u can..haha..but at least something that interest me is that i could use that to earn cash if i am able to earn alot of mesos in the game..haha..hope i can..lol..but at least i know i play that game for a purpose..not just to play aimlessly..haha..
actually thru this game..it actually dawn upon me again that all human beings desire to have a purpose..without a purpose in doing anything..something would soon become meaningless..like that game..some ppl play to watse time..some to earn money..some for the sake of friends..but imagine those with no one to play with..and all they can do is to just keep playing..i believe it will bore them to death soon after..haha..just like life..without knowing a distinct purpose of wat u are on earth for..it will soon lose its meaning of survival..well..thank God i found my meaning in life..something that motivates me in everything that i do..if not..i will not be who i am today..
"thank You God..for giving me this purpose..to worship u and serve u..and for giving me this opportunity to complete the Great Commision for u..it has made my life meaningful..and without u..i will never imagine who i would be by now..thx.."
living a life worth dying for..living a life for God's purpose..

My Birthday and Today!!!!

2007-01-15T00:11:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to me..happy birthday to me..happy birthday to meee..happy birthday to me.......haha..late post for my birthday..lol..but its ok..still wanna wish myself a happy birthday!!!..lol
btw..thx for all who have greeted me with ur precious blessings and smses..appreciate it alot..somehow or rather..it made my day..if not it will not be like a birthday..lol..haha..
thx for my group..celebrated my birthday together with Adam and Aloy..did lots of things..worst thing is that we spoilt their plan..haha..we somehow heard that plan..so we disrupted it and spoilt the whole fun..haha..sry anyway..so we ended up at the final destination ..Esplanade..as usual..gave cards to the 3 of us..and comes the affirmation..which took more than 2 to 3 hours becos its 3 person..haha..so stupid..but really appreciated that too..thx..
yup..anyway..today was a great day too..had East CLM and then CTM..haha..after that talked to Joyce bout Junyuan..well..evaluated and planned the week ahead..haha..
last but not least..the most unfruitful thing today was api shane and i walked for more than 5 hours looking ard..all the way from Tangs to Plaza Singapura..its really crazy..haha..but in a good way to phrase it..i would say its fellowship..lol..
ok..signing off..may the upcoming week be fruitful..
living a life worth dying for..

MY IDOL!!!

2007-01-12T19:33:00.000+08:00

OH GOSH!!!..i thought Josh Groban was good enough to be my idol..my goodness..i have another idol!!!..Vitas Bumac..his a russian..and he is super high pitched and has an extraordinary voice..i simply fell in love with him when i first heard his voice..OH MY!!!!!...haha..seriously i have no idea wat he is singing..its all in russian..but i still love it..haha..if anyone interested to find out who he is..click on this (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=40QwAdOg3HU&mode=related&search= ) website and u will love him too...haha..

Titleless!!!

2007-01-10T23:19:00.000+08:00

God is always so faithful in answering prayers..especially the prayer 'God give me more testings'..haha..prayed that alot of times..and true enough..God answered it..so specifically into areas of my life which sometimes i dun wish Him to touch..but the truth is i cant hide..lol..
btw..its a new school year!!!...haiz..boring..everyone ard left..and staying in sch always feels like a chore..never will i have a moment to want to stay in this sch any longer to study..but at least i know i would prefer staying in sch when i go out to the working world..so......i will treasure every moment..haha..'contradicting'..but thank God there are still a few ppl left behind to fulfill Junyuan's vision..yay!!!..yup..thx to all this ppl that i dun feel so lonely in sch..and thx to this vision for the sch that excites me to come to sch to see souls saved..yup..
next..wanna take this chance to invite frens to come to church for my upcoming performance with a band..those who view my blog and saw this..pls dun run..come approach me..haha..lol..
living a life worth dying for..living a life fulfilling the vision God had put in me..

New Year!!!..New Goals!!!

2007-01-05T23:51:00.000+08:00

just a blink of an eye an here comes 2007..time really flies without us noticing..a while ago i was doing my N level..next is to prepare for my O level..OH MAN!!!...
just to have a short update of wat i have done during my holiday..it was a very busy holiday for me..things that i have done in this holiday are:
-vocal lesson
-sing and sing and sing
-christmas party
-missions trip
these are the major things that i have done..if u were to count them..it will be uncountable..haha..but simply..i was never free once..lol
well..thou it is kinda fast..it was rather slow too..if i were to tink back about wat i have done the previous year..i would say i have done quite alot..however..i would say that it was in a negative manner..cos i realize that wat i have done last year was a waste of my time..especially the period when i was very involved in track..in took away loads and loads of my time and it was really a mistake that i will never want to commit again..i would't say that i have regreted this year thou..cos i learnt that we should never regret wat we have done..rather..learn from it..and improve..not to mourn over wat has alrdy happened and leave it as it is..nothing will be done then..yup..
so since last year was a moulding and learning year for me..i believe that God is going to grow me even more this year and not only will He grow me..but aso use me greatly..wondering of areas God might be using me in?..let me show u..
1)Junyuan to be a Sub-distict by end Dec
2)Worship Leader this year
3)O level below 10 points
4)Disciple Shane and Alfonso
all these areas..or rather goals that i have set..i believe that it will definitely come to pass..definitely..no doubt..becos my God i am serving is a big God..and i have faith that He is going to use me..
JUNYAUNITES..LETS WIN THE SCHOOL TOGETHER!!!!!!..
DISCIPLES..WIN YOUR SCHOOL!!!!!
GOD!!..HERE I AM USE ME!!!
living a life worth dying for..living a life being used by God..

God's challenge..SURRENDER!!!

2006-11-30T00:30:00.000+08:00

the other day before i sleep..God gave me this very familiar phrase.."one man can change the world"..i was rather stunned by wat God had inspired me about..and God continued challenging me in this.."the key is to surrender"..and i was speechless by then..God certainly knows wat i am weak in and had purposely challenged me in this...SURRENDER ALL!!!!!...its really tough i can say..really really tough..but i will hold on to Him and allow Him to prune me at any cost.....
prayer:God..i pray that u may you use me greatly..i admit and confess that wat i have been doing or had done is really small and unfruitful..and alot of areas that i still need to change..i am a sinful man..but God..i believe strongly that u uses all kind of ppl..the only condition that u seek is a surrendered heart..now..i want to say it with full conviction..I OFFER MY WHOLE LIFE TO YOU!!!..may u see my cry Lord..amen..
living a life worth dying for..living a life with a surrendered heart unto the Lord...

Kuching Missions Trip!!!

2006-11-26T14:38:00.000+08:00

after much delay..i finally have the chance to blog on my experience during the missions trip..
firstly..i wanna thank God for giving me this privilege to go for this mssions trip..allowing me to have a chance to experience Him anew..
secondly..i wanna thank Gwen for leading us during this missons trip..she has always been my role model since i came church..and it is really great to have this chance to serve together during this missions trip..
and of course..how can i ever miss out the Hope Kuching ppl!!!!!...THANK YOU!!!..thanks for:
-the tremendously good hospitality..
-showing us ard in Kuching..
-explaining every single detail tat u know bout Kuching..
-CT 5 STAR Hotel
-serving God together with us..
-all ur time tat u gave just for us..
-all the transport tat is provided..
-all ur support when we taught
-teaching and showing us card tricks..
-showing me how a good caregroup is like..
-showing me a MAD generation that is mad for God..
-...and many many more...........
special thanks to-Johnson for the fun and hospitality tat u gave..
-Aaron fo creating all the fun during the trip..
-Allan for all the food and the sincererity tat u have showed us..
-Chan Ting(sister) for all the funny things and allowing us to stay in ur Hotel..
tats not all..but just to keep it short..thank God for all of them who have been with us..=)
it is really a wonderful experience in Kuching where we serve God with all of the Hope Kuching ppl..cleaning the church, conducting workshops, leading caregroup roles and learing from one another..not only is it a wonderful experience..but also a great pleasure to be with the ppl there..they are all so warmth hearted and so serving towards us..doing all they can to satisfy our needs..=)
during this trip..one of my objective is to really see for myself and experince wat God's vision for the world is all about..and true enough..this objective is met..although it is only in Malysia..just somewhere close to Singapore..i tink God had really shown me tat wat i am doing now in Singapore now is just a small part of His vision for the world..and of course..i will be striving and sprinting in this race to win the price..doing all i can to advance His kingdom..thou tough times will definitely come..but wat i am going to hold firmly is tat God will always be there to guide me and carry me thru..
prayer:God..i pray that u will continually input in me this vision that u have for the world..and use me greatly as a vessel to do great things for u..thou wat i am doing now may be small..i believe this is just a training period for me..so as to prepare me..i will continue to dream big for You..and strive towards the finishing line..i aso wanna pray for the Hope Kuching youths..tat they will continue to grow and mature in u..may u bless them abundantly..and help the leaders to lead the group diligently..and bring it to greater heights..and they will be able to start thier own service soon and very soon..in Jesus name i commit this prayer..amen..
living a life worth dying for..living a life doing missions..