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Monday, July 06, 2009
1:14 AM
Today was my team’s first Hope Premier League match!! My team is called Pikachu, what a weird name huh. I joined the tertiary’s tp group to play with Alvin since we had not enough people to form one on our own. And the match was postponed due to the heavy downpour and lightning. So we shall continue our remaining 20mins next week which I find it really stupid and a waste of time to travel. And thankfully, we are leading 3-2.
My position was center back, defender, which was the same as the previous time. Honestly speaking, I don’t really like playing that position. I felt that I can do much more when if I play forward. Those who know me will know that its more me to play forward. I felt that I was kind of restricted when I play defender. But then it again reminded me that the position and role that I was playing was very crucial, so does every single position in the team. That’s what makes a team. Everyone plays a different role and have each role plays a crucial part in winning the game. No position or role is exclusively more important. Without any, the group will not be as strong. Without the defender, the opponents can score and essentially win the game. That’s why I had to do to my best at the role that I am assigned to do. I am the sweeper!! Whenever the opponents attack, I will be ready to sweep their ball away.
And during the match I learnt something about myself today. I have this tendency to be hesitant and indecisive. I always take in too many things into consider which in the end hindered what I want to do and I should do. This realization came upon me when I thought about how I was playing the game. I realized I tend to be very slow to react one what I should do. For example, I will think if I should attack the incoming striker with the ball or to mark the other striker which is another opening. Because of my hesitance, sometimes I tend to be too slow and miss out the opportunity to even do anything. I merely stood there. I was hesitant, indecisive, and not initiating enough in the game. I felt very uneasy that I could not make a difference, and what made it worst was because I didn’t do what I should have done. This brought me back to how I do things at times too. There are things that I want to do for God but I do not do. Sometimes I consider too many things which in the end led to me doing nothing. I lack initiation; hesitant. For example, there are some things which I want to say to the group, but considering some things that I at hand, I did not. I think this is really bad. I will end up doing nothing accomplished. I have to be more choleric and just do it. The only consideration should be if it is beneficial for the Kingdom of God. If it is then just go for it.
I am going to make a difference to the game by beginning with myself.
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